I am incredibly scared of new things. I know I have said this before, and I know I tell pretty much everyone I meet. I knew that I would be going to college when I left high school. That's what everyone did, and I couldn't skip out on college. I was actually a little bit excited. I hated high school. It was not a good time for me. I know some people like it, but I don't miss it a bit. Leaving for college would be a new start. It was scary, but I had done it before, and I could do it again. I would have to make new friends, learn new routines, and be completely in charge of my own life. It was a huge new start, and I was only a little bit ready.

The first couple of days were horrible. I dreaded waking up every morning. Eventually, it got better. Then it just got monotonous. I wouldn't have been able to do anything without my roommate though. I swear I would have forgotten to eat and function without her there. She helped me to come up with a somewhat functioning schedule, and pretty soon my whole life was based around that. I thought that I would be living with that schedule for a while. I was really very attached to the schedule, and that made it better. It worked for both of us, and it made college life easier.

Then she left. It wasn't the place for her, and I understood that. I didn't have to be happy about it, though. Everything was going to be different again. I would be starting over once again. I still don't like new beginnings that much, and it will be even worse without her there.

I know I have a great and strong family back home. They are close by, and they are always there when I need them. Starting over can't be that bad. All the most popular movies are people starting over. Sometimes a big change is what they need. I know that this next semester will be hard, but I know I'll figure it out.