This is one of the few times I am at a loss for words, because when it comes to my Big, I do not know where to begin. She is the oddest combination of my best and worst influence. One day she is the one scolding me for the poor decision. The next she is pushing me to take another shot when I’m already not in the best of states. She is my friend, my second mom, my confidante, my everything rolled up in to one magnificent human. So when the goings get tough, I go to my Big.
While she jokes that she didn’t have the choice, I don’t think there was. It was as though the stars aligned for us to end up together. She was also my brother's Big and that is how I met her. At our pre-recruitment mixer event, I was talking to my brother because I needed a break from telling my life story in a matter of minutes for the 100th time that evening. That is when I met Megan and the rest is history.
We are by no means the touchy-feely classic Big/Little pairing. We are two sarcastic girls who found someone to take it and give it right back. At the same time though, I know she is always a call away and she is the same to me. There are times where I would see that 3 a.m. call from her on a Saturday and just knew what it meant. While there were times I just wanted to ignore it, I never did. While I may not have always been happiest to go pick her up wherever she was, I knew she would be there for me just the same. She has answered my calls with me in incoherently babbling through tears, and she knows just what to say even when she is half asleep.
My Big is my biggest supporter, but at the same time she knows when to take a step back and tell me that I am an idiot (which can be frequent). She is one of the few people in my life I can trust to be 100 percent honest with me. She is always looking out for me and I could not be more grateful to have her. She is blunt and straight-forward which some people might see as mean, but I think it shows how much she loves me. I would not be the person I am today without her sometimes brutal honesty.
Times have been rough as of late and I don’t know how I would be standing if not for my Big. I love her to the moon and back!
