This summer has been a very emotional one for me so far. I've been having a lot trouble controlling myself and I became very overwhelming to some at times when I was trying to stay in touch with friends from school, whether they are alumnus, or are still current students. I got such a joy and excitement every time I would have a conversation with some of those people.
But I'm starting to learn that if I would have been able to control myself better I could have prevented it. But that doesn't mean that I still don't miss them a lot or not care about them at all because that is not true.
I've learned that I need to stop liking all or a good portion of their photos on Facebook and on Instagram. Also I've learned that I should watch myself when I start to comment on their posts too much. Or by not emailing the person or people too much as well.
A downfall of all these sites (especially Facebook and Instagram) is that there is a way people can unfriend or block me. When I see that It happened to me it really breaks my heart because sometimes I don't know or understand why the person/people did it to me. In the case of this summer though, most of the times it happened to me, I did know.
If this happens to you and you start to feel emotional it's okay to cry or get angry with yourself or the person doing it to you. Never think that the people hate you or that they will never forgive you, because in time they will most likely if you give them the space they need. It takes time, and sometimes time is all you and the people you talk to need.
So be careful how much you do on social media, it can truly affect your friendships. Try not to become overwhelming, over the top or inappropriately attached to your friends or the people you are talking to. That's what ultimately happened to me and because of the my friends either blocked or unfriended me on both Instagram and Facebook.
I'm very upset with that happening but I know why some of them did it. I wish I could get them back and maybe in time I will. I know if I need to learn how to control my temptations and urges when I want to talk to them in email or online, it will become less likely to happen a lot.
