I was having writer’s block just before this. I asked my sister for ideas because I was desperate, and she sassily told me, “You should write about me and how amazing I am," then she did a terrible hair flip afterwards, hinting at her supreme sarcasm.

I usually never take my sister’s advice for anything because it’s almost always a joke and/or a terrible idea. For once, I’m actually gonna do what she tells me.

It feels weird to say that I actually remember the day that you were born. One thing is certain, though. From that day until now, I can say that you are my favorite person in the whole world. There’s something about a sister that makes her seem like the only permanent thing in life. Almost everything in life changes, from where you live, to whom you date, where you go to school, and even the people who you call your best friends. A lot of the time, it doesn’t seem weird to imagine yourself separated from those people and places. For me at least, it not even possible for me to begin thinking about life without my little sister.

You are the weirdest person alive, kiddo. You’re so weird, it’s actually normal for me to look at you from across the room and see you playing with oranges on the floor and singing “Let it Go” at the same time (yes, this actually happened about a month ago). It’s normal for me to knock on your door, and find you taking unbelievably horrendous pictures of yourself (yes, this frequently happens). Most people would have probably called a psychiatrist by now, but I love this part of you.

I love that you don’t hesitate to be yourself around anyone at home, and that you don’t even try to be funny. It’s hard to come by a person who isn’t afraid of being offensively strange because they’re afraid of judgement. It makes me so happy that I can rely on you to make me smile even when I feel that everything is crumbling around me.

Your heart and compassion for other people makes me want to melt into a puddle. It amazes me that your heart can even fit in your tiny frame. Over the years, I’ve received countless letters from you (that you’ve stuck on my face while I was asleep) saying how much you appreciate and love me. I re-read them, and it makes me feel so blessed to have a person as grateful and kind as you. Even though you’re so young, you already embody what pure love and kindness is. I feel that so many people don’t understand what those things are. I’m so happy that you are able to accept other people for who they are, and that you continue to love those who treat you wrong or badly, including me. My apology will come later.

Sometimes it’s hard to believe that you’re so sweet because you’re actually a savage too. For an eleven-year-old, the insults that come out of you beat the insults that I hear from educated college students. Here’s an example:

Me: "Dude, why do you always get sick on planes?"

Her: "Because I sit next to you." *walks away*

I don’t really understand where you got this from. Though, I appreciate it. It’s really admirable that you can even come up with stuff like this. It shows me how smart you are, and that you can bounce back from whatever comes your way.

The thing that most surprises me about you is that you’re able to forgive and forget so easily. You don’t hold grudges, and that makes me feel really hopeful about you. There are so many people in this world who always carry unneeded burdens, and that’s what keeps them from being happy. I can already see that you don’t have that in your heart, and I can already tell that you are blessed and have so much to look forward to in life. Even though I am literally the biggest jerk to you, no words can describe how thankful I am to be related to someone who unconditionally loves.

Honestly, I do have moments where I doubt about your abilities and I think about how you’re gonna end up later in life. That’s terrible, and I’m so sorry that I even think about that. You of all people do not deserve those kinds of thoughts. You deserve thoughts that are positive and inspiring. With everything that you say and do, it gives me confidence that you’ll become even more successful in life. There are so many things I could keep talking about, but I kind of don’t feel like writing for the next 500 years.

So, Eiruelle, I actually did write about you and how amazing you are. I guess I could say you got me out of my writer’s block.