Being single comes with its perks, but also its little mishaps. It's a glimpse of freedom but it also comes with unwavering nights on the apps, in hopes of finding that meaningful connection with someone…

Sometimes, we enjoy being by ourselves and seeing what life has to offer. It is refreshing to focus on ourselves and our goals. What life has to offer us as individuals and not as pairs.

But there seems to come a time where we want something more. It isn't necessarily a "selfish desire," but a more innate, human one. As someone who has been off and on out of these "dating apps," I have found that even though we might be enjoying our independence and what "singledom" has to offer us, we can't help but wonder if the grass is greener on the other side.

The past year it was the quarantine. Something that has become a layer of heavy clouds and some light rain on the other side, preventing us from being able to see whether the grass really is greener or not. We can't help but admit that it is difficult to see something clearly through scattered rain clouding our sight. This makes it harder for us to want to approach the other side and begin to see it as more of an outsider or something foreign.

Recently this year, the clouds started to clear up and a bit of light started to seep through. It became easier for us to want to be interested in seeing what the "other side" looks like. We can't help but become more intrigued if the chance widens.

And recently, I have begun to want to see the other side and what it has to offer. Being single is amazing and everything I can ask for, but I have come to realize that I want to know if the grass "is" really greener on the other side. I have begun to want to be able to walk on that grass and feel it underneath my toes.

Walking out of something that has been a part of my life for a long time will be hard. And I will miss it and maybe even miss the person I was during that time. Throughout my life of being single, I have never felt more connected to myself and what I have to offer the world. And I know I will miss that. I will miss every opportunity I got to focus on myself and my wellbeing before other things. I will miss the time I got to spend working on myself and to prepare for a better future. However, I know I won't miss this new part of me that I have unlocked.

It might be a temporary goodbye, but it won't be a forever one. Wherever I am going to head next, I will always bring the part of me that existed when I was single. Because once it becomes a part of me, it always will.

I might be lying if I were to say I am not scared or fearful. But I know my life has good things planned for me ahead. I am only 23 years old and still have at least 5 more decades to go.