I've been praying super hardcore to God about my future husband, but we haven't met yet. I have yet to even date someone up to this point in my life. Sometimes, it's frustrating, other days it's rewarding. I constantly try to tell myself that being single is a gift, and it definitely is, but other times I just wonder if I am doing something wrong or I wonder if I am even "good enough" to be "date-able."
Relationships keep popping out of nowhere, and at least from the outside looking in, they make it look super easy. From my experience, I've tried to be the one to pursue the guy, and it comes down crashing. Basically, none of them cared about me and the fact that I liked them.
I have had my fair share of trials and errors, and there are a million good reasons why God is making me wait. Besides, I just recently turned 21 and to be quite honest, I am actually still very young to date someone right now, let alone to even be engaged.
I am super glad to say that I'm not engaged. Honestly, that would freak me the freak out. Engaged... at 21 years old?! Hold up, stop the clock, did you just put college on the backburner?? If it were me, I would be super anxious if I were engaged at this age.
I literally don't even have myself together let alone my own life together or myself completely figured out yet. Personally, I want to be whole and complete in Jesus first before someone else comes into the picture.
As I'm writing this article, I am realizing that it is seriously A GIFT that I am still single. It would be nice to have a significant other, yes, but I am realizing that it is just not God's timing for me yet. I still have so much more room to grow, to improve myself, and to grow closer to God and truly find myself in Him first before anyone else comes along.
I have been giving myself completely to God and His will and have been praying for my future husband, but I honestly have never felt so content in my life. My soul is so filled whenever I go into my church's chapel and pray and talk to Jesus.
He's the One Guy that will never break my heart; He's the One that I can chase after and He wouldn't leave me hanging and He absolutely LOVES the fact that I'm pursuing Him.
Yeah, sometimes it's rough being single and seeing everyone else in happy relationships and happy engagements, but I am still very young and I can 100% focus on Jesus first.
