Holidays seem lonely. Family reunions are no longer joyful. And I lie in my bed every night wondering where everything went wrong. You were once so happy, caring, and full of spunk. But now your phone is full of missed texts and voice calls. Was it me? Did I push you away?
So many memories rush through my head as I hopelessly wait for you to return my call. You were my best friend. I could confide to you about things I'd never want to tell mom and dad. You kept my secrets and I kept yours. I always looked forward to spending time with you because that time created some of the happiest moments in my life. I'm not sure when it happened, but it seemed as though you were gone in a second. Days passed by and you grew more distant.
I wonder if you think about us as much as we worry about you. Don't you miss talking with me? Don't you miss spending evening dinners as a family? Am I being selfish for only thinking of my feelings? I just want an answer.
I'm tired of always wondering where you are and if you're safe. I'm tired of mom crying hopelessly on my shoulder wishing you'd just come home. Your visits are always short and it makes me yearn for you even more. I suffer in silence. I don't want anyone to know how much I hurt because they're already dealing with the pain themselves.
I know you're hurting too.
Somewhere deep inside your heart, I know it may feel empty. But I'm here for you. We're here for you. I want to see you smile. I want to hear your laugh. I want to make new memories with you. The door is open. We are waiting for you to come home. Our arms are wide open and I want so badly to wrap them around you and never let go. I think back to all of the times you held me through heartbreak, death, and some of the darkest times in my life. Don't you know I'd do that for you? I'd give anything to have you back again.
I've never felt so much pain in my life. I want you. I need you. I'm so angry at myself for letting you slip away so far. I should've helped sooner. I'm not perfect. I make mistakes and say stupid things. But you'll never find someone who loves you as much as I do. The greatest gift our parents gave to us was each other.
I'm begging you, please come back home. We're all waiting.
