Living while you’re alive is a rarity. We spend countless nights rejecting acceptance. We spend countless hours stressing over the things we can’t change. We waste days being anxious on the possibility of decisions we most likely will never make. Things get pushed back until they get pushed off. This is life, and our time here is limited. It’s almost like a back and forth battle that we spend our whole lives fighting. In the right moment, we may find stressing and worrying to be beneficial. Most times though, they provoke our insecurities and fears resulting in impractical behavior at the expense of our time.
It's wild how time flies. One moment you’re with someone talking about how great these new things are. Then some time passes, and you end up feeling something old with someone new. Or, you end up feeling something new with someone old as you rationalize to yourself that things must be different, otherwise there wouldn’t be a second chance in fear that it’s really Déjà vu. Perhaps you’re comfortable and you tell yourself that you’re taking a new chance with someone who has been distant, albeit familiar. It feels good though, but it’s humbling. There’s a mutual longing for each other, which in turn, creates gratitude stemming from separation. Everything is all good at first, much like the first time. Then things begin to go downhill, not in a coincidental way, but in a trendy-habitual way. They start spending more time away. This leads you to question how they move, and at the end of it, the lack of openness leads to a lack of closure. You begin to piece together a puzzle that you’ve pieced together before, just in a different setting this time. After finishing this puzzle, you conclude that history repeats itself. Life, much like time, moves in a cycle. Things have to end in order for other things to begin. Other things only begin because things have ended. Take note of this, and be more appreciative for life and the experiences that come with it by way of acceptance. Some things you can’t get back. This wisdom will hopefully open your mind up to all the possibilities of your decisions, which in turn, will hopefully inspire you to be courageous enough to live a little bit.
As morbid as it sounds, this fight with time is something we won’t win. We have to make every moment count. In doing so, there should be a sense of happiness somewhere in between your thinking and your decision making. Be courageous in how you live, for time can be revengeful through regret. Be all that you can be, while you can still be. Do not let the comfort of your familiarity hinder your curiosity for something new. A change of pace may feel uneasy, but there’s a good chance that these chances you take will lead you to something you never knew you wanted. So please, do yourself a favor, and live while you’re alive.
