I hear so many people saying that they can never be happy that they just have so much going on and too much on their plate and those angers me so much because one is the only one in charge of finding true happiness. You need to realize that you are in charge of how you think and you are in charge of putting yourself first. I can’t stress enough how much self-love is important and that one is not capable of loving someone else or even life they don’t fully accept themselves. I went through a time where I always looked to someone else or even my close friends to make me feel happy when in reality that was hurting me more and not letting me truly accept what life has to offer. I have learned that not posting everything on social media and not giving people what THEY want to see is the start of loving yourself first.

I used to want to post everything I did, post so many pictures on Instagram because I thought people would hype me up more and love me more for someone that I really wasn’t. Now I don’t post things for others put if I randomly post a picture its because I feel good about myself and I want to share it. So many girls edit out how they look because they are afraid of showing who they really are and that’s not fully loving you at all. That is you trying to alter how you look to try to please others. Loving yourself and knowing that you are not perfect but you are made how you are for a reason is a reason to be happy every single day. One of my close friends Dean really inspires me because he always thinks of life as an opportunity to help others and take in every aspect of it knowing that one day it will be over and it show he makes it. Dean always lives by: if you are not weird than you are not normal, the meaning behind it is pretty awesome. I've had so many people tell me "Dean your so weird" in like a good way though.

Think about it, this world there's 7 billion people. But isn't crazy to notice how many of these people all seem so similar to? Everyone is so scared to be an individual because they’re afraid of being judged. So they act "normal" which in my reality is weird as fuck. But people who are completely they are considered 'weird' by "normal" people.” When he told me this I took a step back to realize that I’ve had so many people in my life tell me that I am so weird or that I am so different that that makes me love myself even more knowing that I am not acting how others do. One time while I was recruiting to be in a sorority I walked into a room and I was laughing super loud with my friend and we were acting silly and 3 girls stared at us and rolled their eyes and turned around and proceeded to talk bad about us and I clearly saw and heard it all, yeah that made me feel horrible at the time because I don’t like not being liked by people but then I grew from it and realized that if they cant accept me than they have their own issues with not being able to love others equally. If you feel as if you cant live a happy life because you are trying to please how others look at you than make a list of your favorite things about yourself and if you cant find any than sit back and realize how much you mean to the world.