Sometimes a person enters your life and you just don't know how you lived without them. They make it fun and exciting. I found this person when I was 17 years old. I was a senior in high school, and we had a mutual friend. They told me he was interested in someone else, he didn't give up though and before I knew it I was out on my first date. Nothing special, just subs and bowling, but I had such a great time. I didn't want to leave that date. One date lead to another and before I knew I had my first boyfriend.
After a few months, I realized I wanted this person to always be in my life. We had so much fun together. He wanted to give me the world, and he did his best to. I never had more fun with any other person. He was more than just my boyfriend, he was my best friend. We went skiing, hiking, white water rafting, ropes courses, Philidaphia, New Jersey, Universal Studios, Disney, we had so many adventures. I felt like nothing would ever change. I thought our adventures would continue, but we were young.
When you are young you don't focus on the future but live in the moment, which can be great, but it can cause problems as well. I didn't realize that we had so many differences, or maybe I did but at the time I didn't care. As a couple years went by I realized that our differences couldn't make a future. I had to end it before I got myself into a future that would compromise who I was.
We decided to stay friends, but then I got hurt. He stopped thinking of me first. He stopped caring about my feelings, so we stopped being friends. Some months went by and I forgave him for what happened and we picked things back up again. We stayed friends for a couple years. We would hang out, talk, and text. It was different but he was still a part of my life.
The longer we stayed friends, the more things changed. He frustrated me, talked down to me, and became self-absorbed. I just wanted that same guy who made me feel so alive as a teenager, I wanted to stay close, but sometimes you can't. He wasn't the love of my life anymore. Sometimes you have to make a choice between your past and your future.
One day, a very special person to me helped me do something I had wanted to do for a long time but just didn't know how. They helped me say goodbye. I got the courage to tell him it was time to move on from the past. I couldn't completely move on in my life if I was trying to keep this friendship going. Being friends with and ex is hard, and it isn't right. It causes too many problems, and it can hurt new people that you become close to. I learned this. I thank God so much for the person that helped me move on. It was the best thing I could have done for myself.
