I remember being able to watch any movie I wanted.

I remember when Halloween was my favorite Holiday,

or when I could stay up all night watching conspiracy theory videos and still being able to sleep the night after.

Hide and seek used to be a daily activity.

People used to be able to scare me and I would laugh it off.

I wish I could drive home at night and appreciate the peace and quiet and the stars without having a bat in my car for protection and someone on the phone talking me through it.

I wish I could even picture a life where I live alone, in an apartment, in a city far away.

I want to go to the movies by myself and walk down the street at night unafraid.

I want to be rational.

I do not want to think that there will be someone in my back seat, that a ghost is watching me at night, an alien will abduct me, or a clown is going to kill me.

I remember when I got a full nights sleep every night,

and when I did not think every headache or daring thing I did would be the thing that killed me.

But with them, none of these things are possible and nothing will ever be the same.

So that's why I am done.

I am done with anxiety and I am done with fears.

I will not be the person who embraces them.

I am the person who will fight.

They may weasel their way in and make things extremely hard for me.

But I am prepared to kick, claw, and scratch right back.

I am ready to watch scary movies and to go ghost hunting with my friends.

I will be sleeping with all my lights off and enjoying how much better it is.

I will do everything I want to and nothing they want me to do.

I don't like them.

I don't want to "make them my friend."

They ruined that many sleepless nights and paranoid tears ago.

I hope they are ready for a fight.

Because I am not going down without one.

I am done anxiety and fears.

It is time for a life without them.

I am ready for my I remember's and I want's and I wish's to become I will and I am and I can.