When you realize they’ve moved on. It hurts. Imagine how heartbreaking it must be to suddenly stop talking to the person you thought you'd marry.
It’s the sharpest pain possible. When you did everything with them and have been through the absolute worst together, how could they just move on? Apparently for them, it’s quite easy. For you, not so much.
My heart was broken into a thousand pieces when he decided to leave me, but it broke even more when I realized that he’s also forgotten me and moved on. At first I felt sick to my stomach. It was like an ongoing stomach bug that didn’t want to leave me alone. I lost my appetite and when I did try to eat, I just couldn’t get myself to chew and swallow. It was an awful feeling. But then I thought to myself, was I really this heartbroken over a guy?
Sadly, yes.
When I saw him around, he actually seemed happy. Did I not make him happy while we were together? I showered him with love and laughter, yet he only remembers the problems I caused him. He cut me out of his life so abruptly that I didn’t even get the time to process what was really going on. Without any reason or rhyme, he was gone. Worst part was that he didn’t even hesitate on his decision.
I finally understood that he wouldn’t be back. I tried to focus on myself while he was doing the same. The only difference was, I couldn’t. I could only think about him while he thought of everything and everyone, except me. When someone who used to say "I love you" to you every minute of the day suddenly moves on and leaves you behind, it makes you question if they actually ever did. I can’t cope with the pain, trust me I’ve tried. It hurts knowing that I’ve been lied to, because true love never fails, and ours did.
My love had died and I literally went through all the stages: Denial- I couldn’t believe that it was happening to me. I thought my life was going on the perfect tack and this was just a bump. It wasn’t. Anger-I was so mad that he did me wrong. I knew I didn’t deserve that and I wasn’t at fault., Bargaining- This was the basic ‘Get your ex back’ move, but sadly, nothing brought him back. Depression- Never ending depression. Acceptance is yet to come.
But what we need to know is, this will all pass. We’ll somehow heal. I can’t saw how or when, but I’m sure it’ll happen. What’s actually dangerous is obsession, but that’s for a whole new day!
