I’m uncertain of my future. There I said it. I’m twenty-one years old, I have one more year left of college and this summer I came home to curious faces with questions dancing on their lips. “What are you going to do after college?” “What are your plans?” “What are you going to do when plan A fails?” “You don’t have a plan C? You’re a black woman, you always have to have a plan C”.

I don’t have a plan C.

I might have a plan A and every day, it seems less and less likely.

I didn’t go the safe route. I tried economics and physics for a while in college and even though they weren’t completely boring majors, they just didn’t speak to me.

But film did.

I’ve wanted to be a filmmaker since I was a child-seven to be exact. My parents never liked children movies, so we didn’t watch kid movies. From a young age, I was served up the greats. Our Fridays were filled with trips to Blockbuster and every member of our family picking out a film to watch for the weekend. I was served with the greats: Speilberg, Scorsese, Anderson, Coppola.

I became obsessed with film and along the way I was dubbed “Film Girl” among my peers in high school.

I call this the fun and games part of my life because there weren’t any consequences to being labeled. People didn’t stare at my funny or throw statistics at me about the likeliness of me being a critically-acclaimed and commercially successful filmmaker. No one.

But this changed once I got to college.

Film Girl was a joke.

“You’re not gonna really do film right...I mean there isn’t anyone like you who's making movies.”

Nope, I’m doing film.

I have this long standing idea-people should stop telling black women and women of color the likelihood of them being successful-trust me-we know. Instead, we should focus on telling other members these statistics like white men. So, that when they gain positions of power, they're aware that there are other options outside of people that look like them.

You know the most privileged, overexposed members of our society.

People say that I’m going into an industry that doesn’t give black women opportunities and yet Ava DuVernay just became the first woman of color to break a 100 million budget. I’d say I’m coming at the right time.

I want my parents to be proud that they facilitated my passion for film. I don’t want them to wait until I win an Oscar to be proud.

I may not know how I’m going to break into the industry-I didn’t go to USC. But I do know one thing: I was born to make films.

And it’s that simple.