May 29, 2018

It was those days I lived for-

physically, stayed alive for.

I never knew

when they would come, or what time they'd go-

but every once in a while

they did come.

and every once in a while

I felt.

I felt real and driven

and oriented again -

back into one-piece.

my mind was clear,

my heart was happy,

and my soul was free.

June 6, 2018

She knew where to go,

but she was intuitively scared.

& she craved to be free with a thirst for independence, that was needing to be quenched.

Where was she supposed to walk?

With the crowd, or by herself?

She didn't want to go first, or even last, or even at all.

She was scared.

She was alone.

She always was stuck in the grey areas of the world

Consequentially, she was lost in the dark,

grey fog, which soon became her life.

It didn't seem fair that she couldn't remember what the feeling of happiness truly felt like.

June 8, 2018

I wasted my breath-

screaming,

when nobody was listening.

Now I've lost it-

I'm done

and

I'm gone.

Now I'm done.

Now I'm gone.

& now that they're listening,

I'm unable to speak.

August 3, 2018

Not only have you

destroyed the faith

I put into you,

but you eliminated

any chance

of me trusting anyone else again.