To the girl with the prettiest blue eyes:
I say goodbye
My heart ripped in two
And I truly did love you
I fell for you way too fast
And today I ended up in last
You want nothing to do with me now
And it literally hurts me deep down
I feel that I lost my best friend
And that this relationship has completely ended
What you wanted was a friendship?
I don't think that was ever the case
I am glad I made you tell me to my face
I did everything for you and this is how I'm repaid?
A slap in the face
A cut straight through my heart
I opened up to you, I let you in
I let you see my past, all my sins
I did so much for you, I got along with your folks
Seems to me it was all one big joke
What am I to you?
Some tissue to be used?
And thrown away
Let me ask you one question if I may?
Why? Why did you do it?
Why did you make me feel like complete shit?
Why did you take my heart and rip it to bits?
Why does it seem like a dream?
As my stomach is aching and my chest feels like it will burst through the seams
With you I thought of the future- of our own dreams
How they aligned and for once I 'knew' it would work
But here I am feeling like a jerk
I knew there was something off, something wrong
With you I felt that is where I belonged
Loving you is now something I long
I thought of how perfect it was- our homes close together
In you I saw my soulmate, my forever
But now I'm lost
You are the cost
Who will I talk to all day
Who will I tell my deepest darkest secrets to if I may
Who will hug me and tell me it's okay
Who will tell me that it is okay to be gay
Who will be my friend today
Who will understand my hopes my fears
But let me make one thing clear
You are not sorry you did this, you are sorry you got caught
That is why you are so distraught
To think how badly I wanted you
How badly I wanted all your dreams to come true
For me it was always only ever you
Not a question, you were my selection
To me it was so infectious
Our love seemed real
But in the end, it is all so surreal
I did not get the right hand in the deal
Right now I lay crying, my lips are sealed
Is this what you really wanted in the end?
To break my heart and then ask to be my friend?
That is a pretty petty end to this story, a tip I may lend
I am the one you should be with and whose heart you should mend
But that will not happen right in the end?
I'll be forgotten, a distant memory to you
And to that I say bullshit boo
I know there is something between us but you cannot see it now
I guess I should end this poem somehow
No one to text. No one to call. No one to comfort me.
No one good enough except you I thought that is what I would see
I am not writing this to make any plea
I know you made a mistake and will realize it which is key
And by then I will be gone don't you see?
But to you an old love is all you see
Maybe you will learn
Maybe I have some pictures and memories to burn
Maybe the key word, for you I still yearn
But for me I do not need someone to fix me, I did that myself and it took some time
I am happy with me but for you I rhyme
Because quite frankly with me, you have lost a dime
And sorry to say but that is a damn crime
I gave you everything I could give
And now I am left with something I wonder if I will ever be able to forgive
For some reason I want to but I know that is wrong
I do not quite know where I belong
Confused, lost, depressed
For someone that made my life so happy even when I was a mess
And now I cannot think straight and it is so late
I really did think you were my soulmate
You were the only exception
But that phrase seemed to have died at its conception
I knew I was losing you, I could feel it in my bones
And now I am left with a whole lot of good memories and yet I am the one all alone.
