Being a plus sized female in a world that is obsessed with being skinny, in a word, sucks. I walk into a store expecting the worst and I normally am not disappointed. As I shuffle through size 0,2 and 4 pants I hope to perhaps spot the holy grail. A size 16 pair. It's very rare in stores like Charlotte Russe, American eagle and Forever 21. Clothing is made for small people and anyone over the "normal" size is screwed. Good luck ordering clothes online cause you have to try everything on. Hopefully, you'll find what you're looking for in a plus sized store, but then you get to pay an extra $20 for a shirt.
I have so many people on my side that try and make me feel better about myself and my size. When I eventually come back around and start feeling better about myself, it's time to go clothes shopping again. I wish I could just walk into a store and automatically know that I'll be able to find something to wear. I went into Charlotte Russe the other day because they carry my favorite type of pants. After a 15 minute search, I managed to find one pair of pants in the entire store that fit me. Of course "No ma'am. There's no more in the back. Whatever is out is all we have." I get that a lot. All I can do is roll my eyes and walk away.
I'm a very active person. I workout as much as I can. I eat healthy (although I could be healthier in that aspect, but who can't?). I don't just sit around, gain weight and cry about it. I'm very self-conscious. I try my best and I still can't shed that gross weight. In a world where skinny people rule, there should be more options for "plus sized" people. Options that don't break the bank trying to get one outfit.
I know I'm not the only person to have these issues. It's just not important enough to be acknowledged by society because society is completely obsessed with being the smallest or the prettiest or who has the most bones showing. Coming from a plus sized girl, that's just not cutting it for me. I'm tired of leaving a store with lower self-esteem than I went in with because I can't conform to the normalized society we live in.
