If you're a makeup-loving, 20-something girl like me, you've become accustomed to searching YouTube for the latest trends and makeup inspiration videos. I'm sure you have your favorite beauty vloggers and I'm sure you have your "go-to" routine. Now, like I said, I am a makeup lover. I love makeup. I love how you can manipulate it and pretty much use your face as a canvas. I love watching tutorials online because it gives you new ideas, perspectives, and recommendations for products you may have not heard of or thought of using. Now that being said, I at times can be very over-zealous when it comes to trying out new makeup tips and tricks. I mean, the beauty vloggers make it look so easy! So how could you not get a little overconfident? In this article, I will be describing the phases you go through after you watch a makeup tutorial.

Phase 1: Psyching yourself up.

You have just watched your favorite beauty blogger slay a super glam, yet low-key everyday look. You are confident you can master this look because you have been guided by a beauty queen. Yas girl, you are going to kill it! You are going to have a highlight so blinding and a contour so chiseled, you are going to look photoshoot ready.

Phase 2: Gathering your materials.

OK, so you do not have all the specific products that your beauty guru did. That's OK. You can manage right? You will just have to use those amazing beauty hacks you have seen on Buzzfeed and Pinterest. This is going to be so amazing. You are going to make this werk

Phase 3: Applying that mug.

Alright, now since you're making due with the best materials Sephora and your wallet could mutual agree upon, you're ready to get started. You're slathering on that powder foundation making sure your coverage is flawless and then all of a sudden you remember you forgot to prime your face. HOW DARE YOU? Has Nikkietutorials taught you nothing? So you wipe off all your precious work and start again. Now that you're properly primed and have your foundation on, you can start working on that fierce contour. You grab your best bronzer and are ready to go to town. You glance in the mirror and realize you were a little heavy handed. Actually, you were a lot heavy handed.

You now have to take a quick break to pray to the makeup gods and hope they forgive you for your sins. Once you blend out that awful, bronze atrocity, you move on to the real star of the show — the highlight. You are going to kill this highlight. It is going to be so bright, it will blind your enemies. So since you are poor and unprepared, you are going to use a nice pearl-colored eyeshadow for your highlight today. Since you also don't own a fancy fan brush, you're going to use whatever brush you happen to have laying around. As you apply your highlight you notice that again, you were very heavy handed and that this eyeshadow is more shimmery than you realized. You look in the mirror and you cannot tell if you are shining to the gods or just super oily. So you do what you do best and try to blend it out as best you can.

Phase 4: Brows.

Now that you have moved on from that terrible excuse of a contour. You're going to try your best to make up for the damage you've caused. You start filling in your brows, just a bit, because nobody is born with perfect brows. As you finish filling them in, you realize that you look less like Cara Delevingne and more like a hot mess express. So you try to go back in with concealer to tone them down and try not to cry.

Phase 5: Eyes.

You want your eyes to pop and look absolutely stunning. You grab your fave eyeshadow pallet and start to go to town. Then you stop and ask yourself, "Wait, where exactly is my crease again?" Then throw all caution to the wind, say whatever and wing it. So your eyeshadow isn't a complete mess, but it's no masterpiece you'd see on YouTube. You decide to move onto the daunting task of doing a winged eyeliner look, because you hate yourself. You get your liquid eyeliner ready, you've given yourself a little pep talk and applied your precautionary scotch tape. You apply your right eye flawlessly and say a quick thank you to the makeup gods. You go to apply your left eye and it's just a tiny bit off. Something you can fix, right? No, of course not. So you keep trying to make both eyes look even, but end up looking like a panda.

Phase 6: Acceptance and defeat.

By this phase, you look like a complete and utter mess. You also realize that there is no way that the abomination on your face resembles anything that the beauty vlogger had accomplished. You admit to yourself that this "look" is beyond help and you really need to just come to the acceptance that you are not a YouTube beauty guru for a reason. So you pull out your makeup wipes and makeup remover and fantasize of what could have been but never can be. You then pour yourself a glass of wine, admit your defeat, and indulge in some much-deserved Netflix binging.