Falling in love with someone is something truly magical. You can console in that person about your worries, fears, joy, and achievements in life. At two o'clock in the morning when you can't sleep and your able to Skype them just so you can finally fall asleep. A first true love is something almost indescribable. The following is a personal experience with a first true love. 
My first true love began on August 1,2015 with the man who I though one day I was going to marry. I saw love and guidance in his eyes. I knew he would do anything to protect me and would drop everything to pick up the phone to calm me down. The first month was bliss, then it became a tug of war with me being away at college and he had piece of junk car. We made it work though. He would Skype me at night and stay on the line to help me fall asleep since I couldn't bring my emotional support dog with me to school.
I was finally able to have a boyfriend to attend a dance with me when my sororities formal came up. I still look at the pictures to this day and just smile. I remember how in love that couple was. The blue eyed girl looked at her 6 foot 2 in boyfriend like he was the entire world. The amount of love and passion poured into the relationship made everything okay. The fights that turned into make up kisses. The fighting and screaming late at night on the phone and the quiet crying on the way home or to fall asleep. Through all the hell and pain she still loved that man more than anything. His family loved her and wanted nothing more than for her to stay a part of the family.
They both were tattered souls who had different baggage they brought with them. He was an adopted orphan who had a bad situation growing up and finally found his family. She had divorced parents and grew up dealing with World War 3 and complicated relationships with both of her parents. Equipped with Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety, Bi-Polar Disorder, and PCOS she was an emotional pinball. He had a touch that was able to calm her down in the matter of seconds. In a way he had the connection with her like her dog Wrigley did.
This love lasted almost a year and was by the far the longest relationship for both of them. Little did they know how quick it turned toxic but it was so hard for both to just leave the other behind. They had depended so much upon each other that it didn't feel right to leave one behind. They both grew up not knowing how a healthy relationship was and what they saw growing up is all they had to go off of. Winging a relationship has it's pro's and con's. This relationship for example had so many con's that they both ignored and tried making it work but no matter what nothing seemed to stay happy for long.
After the very hard break-up left the girl in heartbreak that she can compare to when she lost her step-brother during her freshman year of high school. Her depression went to an all-time high and no one could seem to help her. She at times considered suicide just to help ease the pain. The pictures turned into painful memories and wasted time. She finally let her walls down around her heart and as burnt to a crisp.She attended an Adam Lambert concert a few years before this relationship and remembered something he said. "Love is something special until someone tears your heart and puts it over fire like its a weenie, then they take it off of the fire and stomp on it and shatter it like glass." To this day that quote sticks in my head like it was just yesterday.
Eventually the heartbreak eased up and she decided to embrace her inner glam rocker thanks to Adam Lambert and P!nk. She deiced to chop of her hair and shave the back of her head. Peers at her college thought she went off the deep end up but she really just got fed up with people's BS. She had regular appointments with her therapist. So she was perfectly fine and on medication to even out her mood swings.
As I began this article, someone's first true love can end up perfect and others completely devastating. My first love was wonderful to start but the greatest to end. In the end he showed me that I really could be loved no matter what.
