In my 20 years on this planet, at some point during every year I've experienced, there has always been a person or a situation where I didn't feel as if I was enough. In my early years, it was more from being young and naive and just learning how to make friends and talk to people.

I would get rejected from being friends with girls in my class, as young as preschool or I would hear an adult in my life say something and dwell on it for months. Looking back, there has always been a time when being me just didn't seem to fit the part. Going forward a few years, in elementary and middle school, I had my peers make me feel like I was too annoying to be around. This went on throughout all of the years I have been in school in my life.

I get it, people are assholes, but when people start bringing you down and saying little snarky comments about the way you do things and say things, it can take a toll on how you look at yourself. I've had issues my whole early teenage life into the present with my self-confidence. Any job I've been to, there will always be a co-worker or manager or someone who finds me to be an easy target to pick on.

Maybe because I'm nice? Because I'm accepting? I'm never sure.

There can be a happy medium to all of the negativity, though; I can use the setbacks and doubts and use them as fuel to make myself succeed. I had people doubt me when I chose to go to Cosmetology School. Now, I want to be a better makeup artist and be as successful as I can.

At jobs, I've had managers doubt my abilities, and in that situation, I want to prove to them and myself that I can bust my butt working and do a great job at it. I'm still learning how to turn negative people into positive life lessons, but with those things, I've tried to have peace of mind with this situation.

There will always be shitty people who want to bring others down. They find joy in picking apart pieces of other people. So, in some aspect, I have to let that part go. Those people will never be open or kind enough to let others be themselves. Anyone who can't handle me, doesn't need to be in my life. That is truly their loss. That's the mindset I think that everyone should have towards the situations that life brings you.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not a perfect person and I definitely don't think like that all the time. I'm still adjusting to switching my brain to think that way. I saw a quote once, and it said, "Don't stress over what you can't control." I thought that was so powerful. It's the truth; that quote is how I would want to live my life, just so I can have more peace of mind with how I look at myself.

I worry about SO many things that I do not have control over. Whether it's a curse or me overthinking, I would love to not worry about what others think about me. I know that I shouldn't care, and I shouldn't give others the time of day, but I am still a young woman just trying to figure out my place in this world.

Not feeling good enough is something that I feel a good amount, but like I said, I'm working on not letting other negative people bring me down.

So, for the meantime, I'll sit back, blast "Don't Stop Me Now" by Queen, and not worry about anyone but myself. That's really the only person you can depend on, you know?

Stay positive.