I swung open the door to my new house and couldn't wait to show my parents around the place. I was so excited even the bathroom seemed like a monumental landmark warranting pictures and sighs of awe. In reality, it was nothing more than a plain college bathroom. I continued the tour buzzing with excitement to share my parents every inch of the place. I wanted to share this with them. It was so important to me that I share this with them.
Even more important to me is that my parents know why I was so excited to be back at school. I was never the angst-filled teen eager to leave my family. I was eager to explore and learn. At St. Ambrose University, I have found a second home. I have found professors who push me to challenge my ideas and work harder. Always work harder. I have jobs that don't even feel like work because I gain so much more than I could ever give. I am sad to leave home, but I am not afraid. The truth is, I owe it to my parents to leave home. With the tools they have given me, it would be a waste if I didn't take this opportunity.
I never wanted for anything. My parents sacrificed to send me to a good school, and supported me in everything I did. I literally owe my parents thousands of dollars that have helped get me through school. Money can be paid back in physical, but I can't pay back the confidence and support they give me every year I go to school. I could never describe the way it feels to have parents who are so invested in my life. I can't describe the validation that comes from having parents who are generally interested in the smallest parts of my days.
When I forget to text back, know that I'm class in for hours and the time gets away from me. When I don't come home for weekends, know that I have people who I love and love me. You have given me everything I need and more to be successful and happy here. Please know I am so independent because you taught me to be so. All the things you've taught me echo in my mind as I go throughout my days.
I don't move away from home to be 119 miles apart. I move away because I have found a place to that makes me feel totally, and completely whole. I have found a place that never lets me settle. Thank you. Thank you for the books and care packages. Thank you for getting me here and keeping me here. I would never be here without you.
