This is the time of the year where finals are over and inevitably college and high school kids are going around comparing grades in the classes they got. Everybody has put in their best effort and everybody should be proud of it, but instead, we tear ourselves down by comparing grades with our peers. During this time, instead of feeling like I can openly share my GPA, I feel like I have to hide it so as not to offend others, although I usually end up sharing it anyways because it's an accomplishment. However, why should I have to hide my GPA from others just because they are offended? Why can we not be proud of others accomplishments and our own? Why do we always have to be number one?
I'll be the first one to admit that I have faults. I'm a complete klutz half the time, my musical ability is only so-so, and my patience is way lower than it should be. However, if somebody tells me about their accomplishments in any of those areas I'm the first to pat them on the back. Furthermore, I don't think less of anybody who doesn't get the greatest grades, everybody is on different skill levels and some classes are just close to impossible so if they are trying the hardest they possibly can that is all that truly matters. They should feel free to announce their success even if it's not the perfect grade that we are all supposed to strive for.
Now to get the major focus of the essay, my wish to no longer be ashamed of my personality. It has always been part of my personality to work and work and to become as perfect as I could possibly be because inside I'm a perfectionist and I like everything to work seamlessly. The major downfall of that is that when things seem impossible and overwhelming I become a nervous little chihuahua ready to have a nervous breakdown at any moment. However, I hold myself to high standards because I know I can do it.
The worst part of this in my life is I've inadvertently made many people upset with this part of my personality. People automatically assume that perfectionism is correlated with snobbery and that's the furthest thing from the truth. If you need help, I'll be one of the first people to step up and help you. That is to a certain point because I'm trying to work on having enough time for myself. People have always accused me of being on a high horse and looking down on people, which is not entirely true, however, I will admit that sometimes I often wish for people to act in a way that makes sense to me, but is not always best for them. So yes, I'm an overachiever but I've also got flaws just like everybody else and I think we should love everybody for the uniqueness of their personality instead of trying to one up them.
