We all hear growing up not to wish our childhood away, but now here we are trying to figure out what we want in our lives. Whether we are 18 or 73 we still try and look for the moments where we feel like an adult. Maybe we even try and find the moments that keep us young. For a while now I have felt like I was searching for this moment of feeling like an adult. The moment that it all clicks into place and I realize that I'm not a kid anymore. Although I've realized that this feeling of being an adult is not something you search for. It is something you realize inside of yourself. Being an adult doesn't have to mean having to pay your bills, and go to work. It's knowing when you are ready to step into the next chapter in your life, and even though you may have the encouragement to do so, you are the only one who will truly know when you're ready.

There was a moment a few months ago that I felt so weak and helpless. Like I was swimming and every time I tried to get back to shore I was swept back out, and it made me feel like a little kid again because I needed help from others to get out. Being an adult is knowing when you need help in these types of situations. Looking back, I have realized that during my freshman year in college I was still trying to find the moment which in turn made me an adult, but in reality, I think I was still a kid pretending to play house. I think we are all still kids inside trying to keep of appearances and want to continue to just play house.

We try to live life always trying to fix our problems, and sometimes we just have to let everything play out as they go. We think we don't truly live life until we are an adult but in reality, we start to live when we stop caring what other people think. Children have this nailed down. Kids don't care about anything other than being able to play and have fun. So I think we need to stop being so uptight and trying to be the adult that people always expect us to, and learn to let go. Learn to retreat to the days of innocence where we only cared about being able to play and be carefree about who we are and what we are supposed to become.

I believe there are two different times that this should be taken into account. Of course, there will be moments in your life where you have to buckle down and realize what you have to do and take people's opinions of you into consideration, but that person you see looking at you down the street isn't judging you. That coworker you are having issues with may be causing problems but who cares what they think about you. Be who you want to be and as soon as you can realize that, that is when you can start living and forget about the moments in life where you think you need to prove yourself to them. The only person you need to prove anything to is yourself.