Dear you,

I'm not going to lie to you, this is one of the most hardest things I've ever gone through. When we first met, I liked you, I liked your personality, how you treated people with your kind heart. When we met I was going through a breakup, a really bad one, and I told myself I was never going to get my heart broke like this again. If I felt suspicion, I was going to flee. I fucked around so I wouldn't be the one that was hurt just to get over him. It didn't work and I lied to myself saying I wasn't good enough for anyone. I realized this was a lie the day we started talking. That party is one night in my life I will never forget. That night we held hands for the first time and it was the first time in so long that I've felt completely happy. That night we kissed, I felt a feeling that I have never felt before. You were the first person to ever see me naked, both physically and psychologically. it took me a while to build the strength to tell you what I was scared of and what little things made me happy or sad.

Everyone always would tell me that I finally got what I deserved, telling me how happy they were that we were together. I can't even begin to tell you how much they were right. You were the first relationship I was in where I was loved for me and wasn't controlled or yelled at all the time. You were the first guy to not have red flags, and now I wish you would have so then maybe this wouldn't hurt so much. Maybe this is karma for all the times we snuck around and all the times I lied to parents.

I got rid of everything that I had of you in my room and now I have to sleep with socks on because I don't have that really soft blanket you got me to keep me warm at night. I thought giving you everything I had of us would help me, but how do I get rid of all the memories that play in my head late at night when I can't sleep because I just don't understand why you would do this to me and how I didn't see this coming? You cheating was the last thing I ever would have guessed. You promised me that wasn't going to ever happen, we both promised. But you lied, and kept things from me and I can't wrap around my head why.

You are still my best friend and I never want that to change. You were there for me through the roughest times of my life. It is quiet obvious you have problems of your own and maybe that's why you did this. You're not the person I fell in love with months ago, but I know he's in there somewhere and I will wait for him to come back to me. And when he does, I will be here waiting to support him, listen to him, and love him forever.

I'm sorry I didn't show you my support earlier. If you ever need anything, you know where I live.

Sincerely yours,

The one you lost.