To my old best friend(s),
I wish I could pinpoint the day that we stopped being friends so I could go back and change everything. Nothing dramatic ever happened that caused us to lose touch, just time and other interests came between us. I can’t help but feel like it’s my fault. I should have never put anything before our friendship. You were such an important part of my life and now, somehow, we’re strangers. Five years ago, the idea of us one day not being friends was never even something I could think about. You were going to be the Maid of Honor at my future wedding and the non-related aunt to my children, but now you’re not even a part of my life.
Even though we don’t talk anymore, I want to let you know that I check up on how you’re doing. I look at all of your tweets, your Facebook updates, and Instagram posts. I like seeing that you are you happy, but I can’t help but feel a pang of jealousy when I see you with your new friends. I wish I could still be around for all those memories you are making. I wish I could take all the pictures I still have of us on my phone and create a birthday collage for you or be in your snap stories that you post on Friday nights. I often wonder if your new friends know about me.
I hope college is everything you ever wanted it to be. You really seem happy and it looks like you have so many wonderful new friends. I hope they know how lucky they are to be friends with someone like you. I wish we were still best friends so we could visit each other at college and have pictures of each other hanging on our walls. Now, there are different people in the pictures in my room, and although I am so happy to have their friendship, I can't help but feel like that one piece of friendship is missing.
I want to thank you for being my best friend for so long. Thank you for spending summers with me, for the sleepovers and stupid movies we used to watch, for bringing me back gifts when you went away (I still have them), for letting me swim in your pool during the summer, and for treating me like part of the family. My mom still asks about you all the time and I wonder if your parents have asked what happened to me. I miss your parents too. We used to affectionately refer to each other's parents as our own. I hope you are all doing well. When we drifted apart, I didn’t just loose you, I lost your whole family.
Everyone has their own path that they go on in life and unfortunately ours were divided. I know that your path has so much success and happiness in store for you. I wish you luck with the rest of your life because I know it will be amazing and that you will get everything you could ever want. I just hope that you still check up on me so that you can see this and know that I miss you.
Thank you for everything,
Your old best friend.
