Many people go through the stages of being confused by something going on in their life, but the worst is being confused on what is happening not only in your life but in someone else's as well. Everyone has a soulmate and eventually everyone will find that soulmate. Finding that person is the best feeling one could ever imagine, but losing that person is literally the most crippling experience one could go through.
Dear you,
Yes, you know who you are and maybe this will help you realize your mistake. I am done trying to get you to see what I see in us. I am done being put on the back burner and I am done with being a convenience. But I am most certainly not done wanting you, craving you near me and most importantly, loving you.
There are many different loves in your life, some make you grow and some debilitate you. Some are there to help you get over someone else and others are there for a short time. Some are disposable and then you have the ones that last a lifetime. You will always love all of those people that you fall for, but there is only one that you will never be able to move on from.
When you chose to leave, you chose to lose me. And now, you're not letting me go. You're keeping me on a hook so that when you're ready again I'll be waiting. And honestly, I don't mind. Let's be real, we both know I am not going anywhere anyway.
I don't want to move on, because in my heart I know that there is no moving on from you, there is no moving on from us. There is no way that I could find any better than you but on the other hand, there is also no way I deserve the way you are treating me. On top of loving you there are many times I hate you. There are many times I wish I could just be done with you and never turn back. But I know that will never happen. I know that no matter what there is a force that always will bring me back to you.
Many people will say I am weak for letting you continue to be confused and not have a set answer about what is going on with us, but I believe that makes me strong. That makes me a believer, that makes me hopeful, that makes me have faith and most of all that makes me a fighter. And, when people don't fight for what they want in life, well they might as well have given up. I will not give up.
Many people believe that relationships end with the break up, but when you break up with your soulmate it's not the end, it's literally a break. You know in your heart, head and everything in you that you will end up together. You have that hope and desire and faith that it will happen and you don't give up. You know that life will lead you back to that person. I know that life will lead me back to you. I am okay with this, I am okay with knowing, but I am not okay with the waiting.
I promise I will not push. I will not prod and I most certainly will not force. I will wait, I will be here and I will love you for eternity.
Love always,
Your soulmate waiting for you to come back
