We all have that boyfriend that things just did not work out how they should have. You fight, cry, scream and eventually break up. Your mom tells you it's for the best, right? You deserved better, right? But, sometimes all you want to know is "why?" This is an open letter to the silent ex-boyfriend.
Disclaimer: Ice cream and sweatpants are a necessity when reading this article. Don't say I didn't warn you.
Dear Past Lover,
I sincerely hope life is good for you right now. I hope you've found peace with time and that you are in good spirits. I think about you from time to time. You know, when someone is your part time lover and part time best friend you tend to make some memories. I hope you didn't forget my sarcasm.
We were young and in love. And stupid. But, it was good for the moment. We made each other stupidly happy while obsessing over each other in the grossest lovey-dovey of ways. The whole "you hang up first" honeymoon phase that lasted for months. You thought it would last forever.
With just how intense the feelings were in the relationship, so was the breakup. You can't seem to understand why someone you set up on this pedestal in your head would hurt you on the daily, even if it wasn't intentional. You feel queazy and full of angst, extremely vulnerable. Time after time, the fights got old. The spark wore off. And you were done.
As awful as that was, I'm okay now. I'm ready to be okay. We haven't spoken since we broke up. You moved on fast. There is so much I want to know. There are so many untied strings. So many unfinished chapters and stories that didn't have an end. Our memories were put in a place in my mind that I don't go to often. I would think of an inside joke and want to text you, but you wouldn't answer. You pretend I don't exist.
When I see you in passing, I can't help but wonder what you're thinking. Was I "the one that got away?" or did I ruin every hope you had when it came to young love? Do you remember the good times and roll your eyes, or do you see them as blessings in disguise? Do you miss me just as much? Or are the blank stares and no replies an attempt to save your pride?
I hope you've made sense of this. I hope you miss me. And, I hope you realize that what we had was so great, despite the rocky ending. Maybe we will sit down in a café one day and reminisce on the stupidity and laugh. Maybe one day.
With all my love,
Your past lover
A girl can only wonder. If you're missing a silent ex-boyfriend or a stranger you used to know, don't think about it for too long.
Sometimes, it's hard to cope with no closure or reason why. It can become almost discouraging. But, everything happens for a reason. And sweetheart, he's probably missing you too.
