Every so often you meet that person that you think is going to be around for the long haul. That person you could tell everything to and they will never judge you. And sometimes, you do meet that person, but sometimes that person isn't who you thought they would be. Sometimes, people leave without a second, though. And though it hurts, you can't change it, you can't stop them from leaving and make them care. All you can do is move forward. But that doesn't mean it won't hurt.

So here's to you. The ones who I loved and trusted. The ones who I bared my soul to because I thought we would be friends forever. The ones I laughed with all night. The ones who did eventually leave. The ones who taught me how to be strong and move on.

I let you in and told you everything.

The good, the bad, the ugly. When you think a friend is there for the long run, you don't think about what you should and shouldn't keep inside. Maybe I'm too trusting, maybe I shouldn't trust as much as I did and still do. But that's me and I've learned that you can't ever learn to fully trust anyone if you don't let them in. You can't predict the future and know whose gonna stay and whose gonna go, you just have to trust and adjust if need be. Yes, you hurt me when you walked out of my life carrying everything I had trusted you with. Yes, I still miss spilling our guts out to each other while gorging on junk food. But all I can ask now is you still at least honor those secrets I shared, even if we aren't still sharing them.

You taught me how to laugh.

Often I've noticed the friends that hurt the most when they leave, are the friends you had the most fun with. And yeah, that makes them leaving hurt even more. But without you I would never know what it was like to truly laugh with someone and feel completely at peace and happy, laughing till our stomaches ache. And for that I do thank you.

Why did you leave?

I ask myself this far too often. Why did you walk out of my life and hurt me so much? Did I do something? Was it just mere circumstance and falling apart? These questions I may never get answers to and though they will haunt me, I have come to terms with them and realized all I can do is move on with my life without you in it.

I miss you.

I still think about you and our crazy friendship. Sometimes I think about you and wonder how your life is going and realize I don't know anymore... and you don't know about mine anymore either. Maybe I hold on a little too tight and never let go, but that's me. If you texted me tomorrow asking to grab coffee I don't think I'd take even a second to think about it. I will always miss you, but I know it's okay that we're not friends anymore.

Thank you.

Though I'll miss you and you'll hold always hold a place in my heart, without you leaving I would never have learned how to move on and find new friends. I would not have learned how to truly forgive. Losing friends is not the end of the world. Not everyone will stay, and those that do you know are something really special.

I hope you miss me, I hope you wonder about me, I hope you regret walking away. But I also hope you're doing well, and that's the messed up part of it all, I will always care. So here's to you, the ones who walked out of my life.