In the past, I have made excuses for guys who couldn't commit. This letter is for the guys in my past who have led me on to believe that we could be more and then broke my heart when they couldn't commit.
To the Guy I Kept Making Excuses For,
I don't know what I was thinking. I guess I didn't realize how bad things were until someone came around and made me realize how much I truly deserve.
I was so into you, I really was. You made my heart skip a beat, and I never stopped laughing when you were around. You led me on for so long, and I kept telling my friends that things were going to change soon because I believed they would. I thought I was going to be the next girl you fell in love with. I thought that I would be the girl to fix you and all of your problems.
I kept making excuses for you. He just has a lot going on. He's really busy, but so am I. I don't really want a relationship now anyway, so I can just wait. He's going through a hard time right now. The excuses were endless. They became more ridiculous and I could see the worry in my friends' eyes.
I was so blinded by your interest in me, that I couldn't see your lack of commitment to me. It isn't difficult to say yes to a relationship.
I don't need to hear from you every second of the day, I don' t need to go on fancy dates or have expensive gifts for every anniversary. I need someone who will raise me up, motivate and inspire me, someone who will listen to me and encourage me. Most importantly, I need someone who will take a chance with me. I need someone who isn't just messing around with my heart and my feelings. Life is too short to waste time with someone who doesn't care about you. Sometimes I get frustrated about the time I wasted with you, but then I am reminded that you were a lesson learned.
I fell more for you every single day and it broke my heart that you couldn't overcome your fear of commitment.
All I know is that you passed up an amazing girl with the biggest heart. You gave up on someone who would have loved you through it all, someone who had faith in you and believed in you- even when you didn't believe in yourself. I'm thankful you gave up on me. I realized what an amazing woman that I am and I found out how much I truly deserve. Sometimes I wish that you would have just grown up and taken responsibility, but I realized I couldn't wait for that because I might as well be waiting forever.
Most importantly, thank you for giving me a reason to respect myself enough to wait for a man who would commit to me in a heartbeat.
Love,
a girl who doesn't make any more excuses.
