Dear You,

You can love someone so much…but you can never love people as much as you can miss them.

– John Green

You never know the true meaning of pain till you experience it. All of you meant so much to me. And I thought, that maybe I meant something to you to.

When my boyfriend of a year and three months left me, my world began to fall apart. And I couldn't get out of bed, I barely ate, smiled or slept. No one besides a few others really asked me if I was okay.

I waited for days, thinking that one of you would call and ask me if I was okay. None of you came.

Those next few weeks were hell on earth, there was only a few people who called me and asked if I was okay. I honestly was not okay at all.

I found out the harsh truth a week later, It was my final straw, i broke down and cried. Losing my boyfriend was one thing, but losing all of my friends at the same time shattered me.

This decision you all came to was the most heartbreaking thing I've experienced in a long time. Even after everything all of us have been through. All the happiness, the tears, those beautiful memories... you gave up on me. Friends don't do that, they don't give up on each other. No matter what happens.

I was angry, there were no words to describe what I felt. I went through a lot alone; my grandmother's cancer treatment, my great grandmother dying, losing my job, and my godmother having cancer. It sucks and I had no one to help me get back up on my feet.

But in a way, I am thankful that this happened. I learned who really cares, and who doesn't. The people who do care are the people that chose to stay in my life and have gotten me through this. Losing all of my friends, and my boyfriend has made me become a stronger, more independent person. I rely on myself instead of others, and I'm a lot happier than I was.

So I thank you, now I am learning how to fix myself piece by piece without someone's assistance.

Thanks for everything, and good luck in the future.

Sincerely,

The one you left behind