Hello there, remember me?
You told me how beautiful I was and complimented me when I could never see the beauty in myself. You became my best friend and the only person I wanted to go for anything. You would always say how I was different that no one could compare to me. You would constantly reassure me that I was the only one and how there was no one else. But I was warned too many times to believe that how perfect you were was not true.
When I caught you with another girl, I never thought it would be real. When I found you cheating, I died a little on the inside. You stared at me with no emotion. You seemed to not care that I was hurt and crying right in front of you. You laughed and acted like what you were doing was not wrong. Were all the things that people would say about you true? Was I just living in a fantasy world? I lived in denial for so long and never thought you were a bad guy; I blamed the girls and myself. Everything that you told me, was it some drunken mistake? Was I just a body and not a person? I lived in a world that I thought you were my night in shining armor and would speak highly of you to people that did not have nice things to say. However, they were just preparing me for what was to come.
I told you about my life and you wondered why you never knew about it before. I was always scared to let you in because I believed that you would run for the mountains when you heard what kind of person I was. However you told me things you never told anyone about your life and reassured me that you have been through the same things. In that moment I did not feel alone, I felt as if I finally found someone who could understand me. You promised you would never hurt me like the people in my past did. Yet you continued to hurt me more than those people.
I want to thank you, though. You taught me a lesson and I grew from it. I learned to never let your guard down about a person so soon. To never trust so easily and sometimes to hold on to your secrets until you really know a person is ready to not use them against you. It took time but I realized that you were sent in my life so that I could end up finding someone else one day. I can say fully that I have let go of you.
I am now realizing that I am not the girl that was mean't to change you. However, I hope one day you find her.
Sincerely,
The girl who was wrong about you
