Dear My (ex)Love,

Once upon a time you were an unexpected romance. A summer run in that turned into a whirlwind of fun and sun and me falling in love for this first time. I thought it would last forever. I thought it was the love of all loves. From every date to every kiss to every hug it felt like true love or so I thought.

I thought we were going to be together for awhile. You impressed my parents and that's really heard to do. They thought you were going to stick around. The boys I brought home before didn't compare to you. When I brought you to a family party and you met the whole clan they were astonished. How did she snag that catch? The jealous ones would whisper at the party. You paraded me around there like I was the most valued thing in your life.

I remember the dances we shared under the stars. They glimmered above us and the moon sang. You make loving you easy, a classic ZBB line you whispered in my ear. I would giggle like a school girl. You made me feel like nothing in this world could stop me. You held me so tight that nothing in this world could hurt me.

If I knew that night you said goodbye to drive home that it would be the last time I saw you I would have said more than I love you and kissed you goodbye. I would have remembered that kiss. I would have remembered that night a little more vividly if I knew it would be the last. I closed the door to my little apartment and you waved goodbye for the last time.

For you that wasn't the love I thought I was. I was just there to keep you occupied, I guess. I was there to fill your time of boredom, I guess. I guess learning that summer was over was hard. I guess you couldn't bare the fact that there would distance between us when you would move. So, it had to end? Yeah, it had to end, but you were home all the time. How could lead me to believe I was yours when I wasn't?

The hardest thing was running into you one of you're weekends home. You looked at me like you still loved me. You also looked at me like you pitied me. I couldn't read you. I still loved you. How I wanted to hug you tighter and kiss you right then and there, but I couldn't. I just said good bye and parted ways. Holding back the tears until I was sitting in my car. They ran down my cheeks like a river. I river of regret and love for a boy that I thought was all right for me but was all wrong.

I learned from you. I learned a first love can be the greatest love. I learned that the hardest goodbyes are the most unexpected. I learned that you were and will always be my first and hardest heart break.

Learning from you was difficult. It took me time to realize that what ever I tried it wouldn't have changed your mind. A summer romances aren't suppose to last. They were created for the memories to made and for the stories that went with them to be shared.

I would like to thank you for showing me I can love someone so much. I'd like to thank you for teaching me that it takes time to mend a broken heart. I'd like to thank you for letting me learn that you weren't my real true love, but just my favorite summer romance.

I hope down the road you meet someone that means so much to you as you did for me. You were the greatest and worst thing that happened to me. Thank you for teaching me this one true lesson in love because you made loving you easy. Now, it's time to let you go.

With all my love,

The Girl That Got Away

*xoxo*