Dear Baby Daddy Sperm Donor,

I hope you know that you're missing out. I am sitting here staring at my son right now, in awe of how smart and amazing, and it breaks my heart that you aren't here, watching him grown and pointing out what he gets from you (which is a lot). But mostly, my heart breaks for him that he will never know you.

As much as I wish my son knew his father, you made the choice to walk out of his life, so my simple request is this: stay there. Stay away. We don't want your instability. We don't want the excuses you've given since day one. And most of all, I don't want my baby to ever not feel wanted.

Coming from experience, a revolving door dad hurts. I've been hit by that door a thousand times and every time questioned if I did something wrong. If he left because I pushed him away. And I never want my son to have that feeling, because he hasn't done anything wrong in his life. He doesn't deserve to question if he's enough. He doesn't deserve to lay in bed at night missing you and crying because you left again without an explanation. He doesn't deserve to watch you grow up one day and have another kid and watch you be there for that kid while he wonders why you weren't there for him. No one deserves that. And I rather he have blank pages than half-filled ones, when those are filled with hurt.

I am here. I have been here for him from the start. I am the face he sees first thing in the morning. I am the name he calls when he's crying. I love him to death and I am all he needs for now. I am his mother and father.

One day, I'll tell him your name and your story and then it'll be up to him whether or not he wants to know you, but for right now, you made the decision not to know him, and you need to stick to it.

So may the next 18 years of your life be filled with joy an happiness. I know mine will be.