Dear Sister, I miss you and I don’t even know you. I feel so connected to you and yet so far away. How can it be that my heart loves you and yearns for you when I haven’t even seen you? I know we never met, but you affect my life every day. You’ll always be my big sister, and that will never change.
You were taken way to young. In fact you didn’t even get to see light or take a breath. They say you can hear voices in that big belly, so I hope you got to hear mom and dad's voice before it was too late. I hope while you were in there growing you felt love and joy. Heaven gained a baby angel and got to watch you grow. This week is your birthday, and you’ll be turning 36 years old, but we have not gotten to spend a single year with you.
I dream of what you look like. Do you have blonde hair or brunette? Would your eyes match mine? I wonder what your personality would be like. Would you be an introvert like our father or an extrovert like our mother? I fantasize did you play sports, or what are your hobbies? Did you go to college and what career path did you choose? I like to believe you would have touched the lives of many. I even wish I could know something as simple as what’s your favorite color. How much would things have change if I had six siblings instead of five? What if’s run through my head constantly about how life would be different if you were here.
Thank you for watching over us and being our guardian angel. Thank you for being there for all the good times and especially for the bad. Thank you for protecting us and for teaching us how to love in a way we didn’t know was possible. Thank your for visiting me in a dream, even if its fantasy I treasure it just the same. The butterflies are also a true gift because every time we see one we always know it’s you. Thank you for sharing your name with me, I’ll treasure that my whole life and hopefully my daughter will understand how she got such a beautiful name.
Sister, I’m sorry you didn’t get to spend a day here or that you don’t get to truly experience how to live. I’m sorry I don’t visit or talk to you enough. I’m sorry I only come to you when I’m feeling extra sad but I know your there watching the good moments just like every sister would. I wish we had a chance to do all those sisterly things. I wish you could have been here for birthdays, graduations, heartbreaks, learning how to grow, and even to just annoy each other.
I wish heaven had visiting hours but I know that would be impossible. So I’ll just have to wait for the day I’ll finally get to meet you and hold you in my arms. I know well be inseparable to make up for lost time. I know heaven is lucky to have such a special angel, but can you blame me for wishing this world could have had you first. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you and miss you. I know even though I never truly met you, that loving you is unconditional and undeniably strong because you are my angel. Sister, you have touched my heart and there you’ll always stay.
