It's been a long time now since you have crossed my mind. You used to tell me things, things that overwhelmed my head with insecurities beyond my control. You believed them, you believed that this was my life and it could not get any better—you were me. You, the old me, almost destroyed what so many loved. You almost took all of the good pieces of me away. You didn’t want to see me grow. I know now that you are not me anymore. I lost myself and who I was for a while. My thoughts began to drift; I was so focused on living my life for everyone else that I forgot to live for me. You almost took the good parts of my life away, but I saved myself.

I am doing well, if you were wondering. I now look back at my unclear moments and think of how silly I was to believe you. I despised you for almost taking away the little pieces, faults and all, that made me who I am. But you weren’t only taking those pieces away from me, you were taking them from my family and friends as well. I was at such an insecure point in my life, my friends and family knew this but they also knew me to be stronger than that. I guess they knew me better than I knew myself at the time. I know now that I am stronger than the thoughts you tried to blur my vision with. I am happy now, I’m sure you wouldn’t like that, I’m sure you would be surprised as well. You thought I would never make it to this stage of life, the happy one. I am grateful that I have.

I disliked you so much for making me feel the way I did, for making me see so little in this world when there was so much. I would not have been able to thank you before the old me healed but now you are no longer me and I see clearly again. You helped me realize how important the little things in my life are to me. Thank you for making me strong. Your plan to make me see so little in myself may not have been a success but it did teach me a lot. You taught me that this life we live is so beautiful, I now wake up every morning and look forward to whatever path it will take me on next. You taught me that, although, at the time, it may seem that nothing is going right and may never go right, it always does.

The most beautiful view can only be seen by conquering the most difficult climb. You just need to get up and start climbing, you will make it to the top eventually. Although it may seem so incredibly impossible with clouded thoughts, you will surprise yourself; just be patient. I promise you, you are stronger than you think.