I think everyone wishes they could have given their high school self advice while they were still in high school. I went through a lot in high school and not many people really understood how much I hated the last two years. This is an open letter to myself during the rough patches of high school.
Dear Me,
Freshman year and Sophomore year will go by fast and easy, you’ll have friends who are nice and genuine. You’ll have homecoming week, the homecoming dance, your first pep-rally, you’ll get your license, maybe get a car, and it will all be fun. You should always be yourself. As a warning, be careful who you date. Never date a friend, or someone in your friend circle because the break ups are just awkward. The mutual friends you have will feel like they have to choose a side, and they will. It just won’t be yours.
Although, freshman and sophomore year will be fun and easy, junior year will be a rough year for you. You will have family problems, you will worry about grades, and you will lose friends. When you need your friends they will barely be around anymore, because you will be the girl with family issues that no one knows how to talk to. You are weird, different, and not cool anymore. The new kids will convince your friends you’re different, and spread lies about you saying you talk bad about your friends behind their backs. Your ‘friends’ will believe them and they will no longer be your friends. After dating a friend in your friend circle, and breaking up, of course that’s when the rumors will start. People don’t know why you broke up or what happened so they make up their own little stories and next thing you know you will be called names. People will give you horrible looks, and make fun of you in front of others, they’ll write notes and pass them to you in class, calling you undesirable names, and eventually lunch with the janitor will be your favorite part of the day. Having someone tell you they hate you, or you’re worth nothing, it’s all going to hurt, but you need to stay strong. They are just bullies and it will all pass soon, I promise.
You’ll get depressed, even though you are a strong person, you can only take so much hurt before you give up. You’ll be sad, crying on the way home from school, never go anywhere, and stay in your room, a lot. Everyone will see the light inside of you burning out. The bullies won’t let up. They’ll write things on your locker, and even write on post it notes and put them on your car, but you will stay strong. Just as you think you are at the lowest of lows in your life, and as silly as it sounds you’ll meet someone who will help you be happy again. He will be there for you when no one else is.
Senior year things will get a little better. People will still look at you weird, but that’s mostly because in one summer you will have changed so much. You’ll be wiser, smarter, deeper in your faith, and most of all, loving. You’ll mature and have a stronger mind. You will not let them get to you. You’ll still have lunch with the janitor, and still keep to yourself and not have many friends, but you’ll have a great senior year. Prom will be a blast and graduation will be so bittersweet. You’ll say “I did it.”
Just remember, high school is tricky. You walk into a new school and you try to find where you fit in. Hint: Don’t try so hard, it is not worth it. Clicks are the worst. High school is filled with them. It’s either be yourself, or be someone that someone else will think is popular. People will be mean, there will be bullies, you’ll loose some friends along the way, you might date a bad boy, and you’ll learn so many lessons, but if you listen to your heart you’ll make it out alive. Besides, you’ll have college to look forward too anyway, and trust me, college is a blast!
Xoxo,
Your future self
