You open Facebook and you're met with a common theme, friends hanging out and getting coffee, or going on vacation, or just being together. It seems like the only tan you've gotten this summer is from the screen of your laptop. You have maybe one really good friend and feel disposable to the rest. You text people and they never respond and you just wonder, what did I ever do to you? Or maybe you text everyday and then they start getting less and less frequent until the person you once shared everything with is now a stranger. For someone like you, maybe that person was your only lifeline, the only thing that made you feel grounded and now that they're gone, there's a hole in your heart that only they can fill.
Of course you have other friends and friends you made after they had left you, but it's never the same and your new friends almost always seem to already have found their best friend and so you're left to drink a bottle of wine by yourself in your single dorm room because everyone you know already has a roommate. Maybe those around you think that you would rather sit at home alone than go out. Whether or not that is the case, it is always nice to be asked. It makes you feel like at least someone cares enough to want to see you.
You look around and wonder where could your person be? Because every time you think you've found them, something else gets in the way. And then you're alone again and you have to watch as the person you had given your heart to walk away and do the same thing with another person. And as the years go by, it seems less and less likely you'll be able to find your platonic soulmate because everyone you meet already has their's. You begin to mix anger and sadness and can feel the walls starting to build around you again; it'll be much harder for the next person to hurt you. You make sure of that.
When you lose someone you love, whether is be romantic or platonic; from death or separation, it is easy to shut down. Do not underestimate the power of any relationship or take those you love for granted. You could be one of the few rays of light in their life.
Maybe this is just me. But if you can relate, I guess you're not alone. Rant over.
