To The Man That I Will Vow To Love Until Death Do Us Part | The Odyssey Online
Start writing a post
relationships

To The Man That I Will Vow To Love Until Death Do Us Part

If I'm marrying you, know that it must mean that I trust you, which is a lot harder for me to say then the words "I love you."

553
newlyweds

First of all, what were you thinking? Let's start there. Knowing me, I've probably warned you so many times that I'm crazy and told you that you should take off running in the other direction. But seeing as you put a ring on my finger, you must love the late nights of sobbing and questioning whether or not I want to continue living. You must love my three o'clock a.m. thirst for adventure, even if that adventure is to go find someplace that will sell us ice cream. Because to love me is to love every piece of me, and if you don't I suggest you run.

I never had a lot of faith in marriage. I've seen four fail firsthand. I had to dry my mother's tears before I even knew how to spell divorce. I had to help raise her children before I was even capable of having my own. Marriage to me is just a legally binding contract, something that ends all love and turns it into routine and comfort, a loss of passion for the person you swore to care for forever. So if I'm marrying you, know that it must mean that I trust you, which is a lot harder for me to say then the words "I love you."

Know that every day I'm trying. I know that I'm not happy all the time and I get moody and angry for no reason or fault of your own. I hope that you have learned to quell my mind. I hope you know the tricks that I've taught myself to stop the late night panic attacks, and I hope that you pull me back in when I push you away.

Despite the negative tone of this letter, I'm going to try to make our marriage your source of happiness. I cannot wait to bring children who are small versions of you and me into this world, cannot wait to be sleep deprived and drug to my wits end by tiny humans that you and I created.

I am so excited to see the minivan that I will complain about driving because it makes me look old. I'm so excited to see our son or daughter score their first goal because I know that they'll be soccer players. (Haha sorry, they get it from their mother!). I want to fall asleep next to you, too exhausted from a day of family time to even kiss you, and just wearily say goodnight and to know that it won't matter because I will get to see you when my eyes open the next morning.

I hope I get to see you old and grey, grouchy yet sweet to our grandchildren as they ask you to tell them the story of how you met their grandmother. And I hope that you tell them the story with a huge, goofy smile on your face, the one you were wearing the day that I met you and that you still have that same spark in your eyes when they meet mine.

And when the day comes that one of our sets of eyes does not open, I hope that we will die full, both our hearts and our minds with memories.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
12 Things To Do On A Snow Day

Everyone loves a snow day! Whether you decide to call out sick from work or your classes get canceled, it is a great way to spend time with family and friends.

1. Build a snowman

People brave enough to face the weather can go outside to build an adorable man made of snow. Relive those childhood glory days, but remember to bundle up!

Keep Reading...Show less
April Ludgate
NBC Universal

Everyone who is in college right now, or has ever been, knows the struggle of pulling in the strings at the last second. It seems impossible, and you have to do a LOT of things in order to assure your future for the next semester.

April Ludgate, historically, is a very annoyed person, and she doesn't hide it. Of all the times that I binged and re-binged "Parks and Rec," her attitude relates more and more to me.

Keep Reading...Show less
Health and Wellness

To The Cheerful Person On Their Rainy Days, You Are Valid

The world is not always sunshine and rainbows, and you do not have to be, either.

689
pug covered with blanket on bedspread
Photo by Matthew Henry on Unsplash

Ask friends of mine to name a quality about me, and one a lot them will point out the fact that I am almost always smiling. I like to laugh and smile -- not to quote Buddy the Elf in April, but smiling is my favorite! It is probably my favorite go-to expression. However, what a lot of people do not see is that I have my down days. I have days when smiling and laughing is a real struggle, or when I have so much on my plate that going out of my way to behappy takes more effort than I have stored in me. Be it a symptom of college and growing up or a facet of life, I cannot always be content.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

11 Struggles of Packing for College

It would be so much easier to just pay someone to do it for you

686
a room with boxes and a window

1. Figuring out when to start

Timing is key, you don’t want to start too early or too late.

Keep Reading...Show less
Entertainment

15 Times 'Parks and Recreation' Has Summed Up Your Life

Relatable moments from one of the best shows I have ever watched.

448
parks and rec
Liz Keysmash

Amidst my hectic college career, I always find time for one thing, even on the busiest weeks: Parks and Recreation. This show has made me laugh and has made me cry, but most of all I have related to this show more than I would like to admit.

Here are some "Parks and Rec" moments that relate to life struggles that just about everyone faces.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments