Dear Guy Who Was Never Meant For Me,
It has been almost a year now and every time I see you my heart drops into the bottom of my stomach like I never learned to live without you. Guys and girls fall in love all the time, but this, this was different, this was you. You were the man that, right now, I would still be with. The guy that in twenty years I would be married and have kids with. You were the one. That is what I thought at the time, anyways. It was like I fell in love with you the way cats fall in love with laptops quickly and obnoxiously. Then you left.
You are probably going to read this one day and think that this is my platform to judge and maul you on, but I beg you to read on because that is not the truth. I am letting you know that my feelings are valid. I am letting the world know this was no one’s fault but our own. We were on two different paths that were never meant to cross that way and because of that, you had to go. That is something I had to forgive and move on from, something that made every part of me burn, but something that had to be done.
Many people would think it was all your fault because I always tried so hard to make it work, but they would be wrong because I had my faults in this too. I had my share in this we were in this together for a long time. We had our lives planned out to a T and that meant, even if you had beautiful blue eyes, we still could not cross paths in this way. This is okay, I will live to see another day. Sadly though it still hurts and there will never be a day that I do not love you. There will never be a day that this doesn't hurt me deeply when I think about it.
I always think about it. The way our laugh sounded and I think about how I used to come to you about everything. I remember the time I tried to hold your hand and you told me it would never work. I remember the 800 texts a day. I remember the inside jokes. I remember the good, the bad, the beautiful, and the ugly. This is normal though and it means that I have forgiven, but remembered who we were as we.
The whole point of this isn't to bash you or make you feel bad. The point of this is to actually let you know...I forgive you. It is to let you know that I am okay and that I am living life the way we all should. It is to let you know, Mr. Guy Who Was Never Meant for Me, that even though your crooked smile still makes my heart stop, I have moved on. I have a boyfriend who loves me and I love him. I am okay.
Dear Guy Who Was Never Meant for Me....I hope you are doing well, I hope you are happy and loved, and I hope the girl who was meant to cross your path treats you well.
Love,
The Girl Who Was Never Meant For You
