An Open Letter To The Guy I Keep Going Back To

An Open Letter To The Guy I Keep Going Back To

Here's an attempt to explain why I keep coming back.
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One day I hope it is going to be funny. I hope ten years from now you are either sitting next to me laughing about these moments or I am laughing at how naïve I was for thinking we could ever be something.

We all have that friend who goes back to the same guy over and over again. Well, I am that friend.

I can’t believe since April I kept on going back to you. Correction, I keep on going back to you.

For a while, you were out of sight, out of mind. Summer was easier because of that. We had states between us. But then one day, you were still out of sight, but I couldn’t get you out of my mind. I have been battling myself ever since.

I keep on going back and reminding myself of when things were good. There were days I would be the happiest girl in the world, even if it was from a simple text or Snapchat from you.

Obviously, I think I had valid reasons to believe it was something real.

You texted me just to talk pretty much every day. You came to visit, even though it was inconvenient and you drove home at 2 in the morning. Honestly, I kept thinking we were headed in the same direction. But then somewhere one of us took a wrong turn. I can already hear you say it was your fault that we fell apart because you said it once before, but I know it was me.

The other day my friend asked me who I would choose if I could be with anyone and of course I said you.

I would always choose you.

I’ve tried walking away before, but I always find myself running back. I constantly find myself going through a cycle. I am okay one week and then the next week I might be sobbing in my best friend’s room because I just don’t know what to do about you.

It is easier to deal with everything right now because you have a girlfriend. There's nothing I can do. But what if things end with her? Then you're single and that could honestly be worse.

Although the first go-round with you did not go as planned, I find myself wanting to go back. I wonder what could have been and what could possibly be if I give you a second chance. Because I would. I would give you ten million chances if you asked.

I realize the thought of giving someone a million chances is absurd. So, why do we do this? Why is it that we all have that one person that we cannot seem to let go and get over? After much thought, I have some sort of explanation for this common occurrence amongst us all.

The first reason that came to mind was simply that I am still falling for you. I constantly find myself thinking of you. When my friend says she saw you and tells a funny story, I think about how much I would pay to be there. The first time I saw you after we fell apart, I felt the same way I felt the night we met. I had butterflies in my stomach and I couldn’t focus on anything else because you were in the room.

No matter how great a person the other guys may have been that I have met, the fact that they were not you stopped me from pursuing them.

So why do I keep going back to you? Most would say love. Am I in love with you? That is a strong word; It’s a very scary thought, but I think it could very well be true.
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30 Things Guys Wish Girls Knew

Things a best male friend would tell you.
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1. The sexy, crazy fun girl doesn’t always win the guy.
Yes, we are attracted to the fun party girls that never settle down, but at the end of the day, we can’t bring those girls home to meet our moms. Every guy is looking for the sweet, beautiful and down-to-earth girl that makes us laugh, keeps us grounded and believes in us. We want a girl that we can talk to about more than just how many shots we can take before we blackout. Guys want to date a Megan Fox and marry an Emma Watson.

2. Men are not mind readers.

3. Sunday sports are like the sun rising in the East and setting in the West. It's a fact of life, and you've just got to let it be.

4. When a game is on, please only talk during commercials.

5. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions, so neither do we.

6. Ask for what you want.
Let me be really clear about this one. Whether the hint is subtle or obvious, we're probably not going to get what you're trying to say. So, just tell us what you want.

7. Anything said a week ago becomes null and void and cannot be brought up in an argument again.

8. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how to do it. Not both.

9. We only see about 16 colors.
For example, the term "peach" is a fruit, not a color.

10. If we ask what’s wrong, and you reply, "Nothing," we will act as if nothing is wrong.
We probably know that you’re lying, but it’s not worth the fight.

11. You have enough of my fraternity shirts.
Don’t keep asking for more, and don’t just take them. You have to earn them.

12. Stop telling me to make you my #WCW.
Everyone gets annoyed with the couples that make each other their #MCM or #WCW every week; we will not be that couple.

13. It’s not attractive to hear you talk bad about other girls.
I know you don’t like one of your sisters because she stole your Big-Little shirt idea, but keep that talk for your sisters, not us.

14. Being smart is very attractive.
We want a girl that can read a book and carry on a good conversation.

15. Allow me to open the door for you.
Don’t let chivalry die. I know you’re 100 percent capable of opening the door yourself, but see it as a nice gesture. It’s something our dad taught us to do.

16. I’m going to try and fix your problems.
Don’t vent to me if you don’t want me to try and fix what’s going on. That’s what guys do.

17. Don’t take my fries.
I’m a growing man, and I need my food but will gladly take whatever you don’t eat.

18. Don’t be dramatic.
Guys don’t like girls that are crazy about drama, plain and simple. If you enjoy the attention that getting jealous gets you, you will not get my attention.

19. Don’t say you miss me after an hour or a day.
That’s when you begin to edge into the "clingy" zone.

20. It’s okay to compliment us.
We like when you tell us we look good. We will just never say that out loud.

21. But don’t call us "pretty" or "beautiful."
This is not "Twilight," we do not sparkle, and we are not "pretty".

22. “I’m not looking for a relationship” can sometimes be directly translated to "You’re great, but we’re just not ready to be tied down quite yet."

23. We’re all on that college budget.
So know that we would like to give you the world, but can only afford the dollar menu sometimes.

24. If my friends don’t approve of you, then odds are we won't be able to date.
The same sentiment goes for my family.

25. I will smile, but not 100 times.
I’ll take pictures because you want to, but if I’m being honest, you’re going to look just as good in the first one as you will in 100th one you force someone to take.

26. We don’t always have to be doing something.
We can enjoy Netflix and a large pizza.

27. You have too many shoes.

28. You have enough clothes.

29. Don't ask a question that you don't want an answer to.

30. We are in shape. Round IS a shape.

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12 Signs You Know The Guy Just Isn't Right For You, No Matter How Cute He Is

Time to chuck that pros and cons list.

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If you're like me and you can't decide if someone is right for you or not, you make a pros and cons list. Nine out of 10 times, it's helpful. I decided to make things a little easier for the pros and cons list making individuals and comprise a list of signs that the guy just isn't right for you. It's hard to decide and you think that maybe you're overthinking or that you're just scared and trying to find flaws, but when it comes down to it, go with your gut.

He's not good for you if...

1. He doesn't make you laugh

Humor is SO important. What's a relationship if you can't joke around and laugh?

2. Your conversations don't have substance

Do you ever sit down and talk with someone for a while and then you sit back and ask yourself what did you just talk about? If the conversation is boring, your relationship is going to be boring.

3. He doesn't support your goals

Time to say "bye."

4. You don't get butterflies when you're around him

If you don't get that feeling in your stomach where you want to throw up, in a good way, he's not it. You want to feel excited and nervous and happy to see them and be around them.

5. He makes you feel smothered

Nobody wants to feel overwhelmed.

6. He doesn't respect you

Again, "Bye!"

7. He's a negative Nancy

We all need some positivity in our lives. Why be with someone who's a drag?

8. You can't truly be yourself around him

Be with someone who accepts you for you, completely. He's gotta accept your quirks and your spunky personality.

9. You don't get along with his friends or you don't like them

If his friends are jerks and he hangs around with not so great people, that shows what kind of person he is.

10. Your values don't align

Self-explanatory.

11. He tries to impress you materialistically

He can buy you all the bags, jewelry, and clothes in the world, but if that's all he has to offer, he's not good for you.

12. You don't see him as a friend

If you can't be friends or don't have that friendship vibe with him, then that's not going to do any good for the relationship.

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