Dear guy who's brave enough to date me,

Congratulations! You've got some major balls. You've managed to look past my abrasive personality, get over a few unanswered calls and texts, and climb over the massive wall I've built around my heart. This relationship, no matter how far it goes, will be a difficult one for the both of us. But don't worry... It will be worth it.

Not many guys have been able to handle me and all of my quirks. I talk way too much. I forget a lot of things so I may repeat myself (or ask you to). I'm a big ball of contradictions. I'm not affectionate. I'm disgustingly honest. But I love unconditionally. I give way too many second chances. I have a hard time staying mad at people. I will spend money on you before I spend it on myself. I will also cook for you before I cook for myself.

I have learned how to be independent and comfortable with who I am by spending most of my college career getting to know myself and cater to that girl. Although there is still a lot to learn and a lot of growing to do, I have come to a point where what I've learned so far is more than enough. I refuse to settle for anything less than what I know I deserve and I refuse to turn into a different woman just because it suits what you're looking for. Fortunately, I think you already know these things about me and you're still here so that's a good sign.

Things aren't always going to be rainbows and butterflies and I need for you to understand that. I need for you to hug me when I'm sad. I need for your voice to lead me out of the crazy maze of thoughts and worries in my brain. When I'm feeling overwhelmed and am having horrible anxiety, listen to me complain and don't make me feel smaller than I already feel. Celebrate with me when all is right in the world. Laugh with me even when my jokes aren't funny. Support me in everything that I do. I promise to do the same and more for you.

Although I may not vocalize it, I am so excited for what's to come. Regardless of if this is a forever fling or a one-time thing, I cannot wait to make memories with you. I don't really care about fancy dates or trips, it's the little things that I'm most looking forward to. I'm looking forward to finding out the little things that annoy you so that I can use it against you. I can't wait to tell you all of the random and funny things that happen on an everyday basis. I'm excited to laugh until our stomachs and cheeks hurt.

So, if you're reading this and are still gung-ho about this relationship, you are braver than I originally thought. Good to know, because this is only the beginning...