About 55 million people die every day. Every single day, someone loses a person. You never think about it until you lose someone close to you. And most days, when you see an RIP post on facebook, you can justify it as "this is sad, but we weren't that close." You never think that maybe one day you'll be losing someone you love as well. And it never hits you until it actually hits you.

Thinking about losing someone has always been a fairly foreign thought to me. I never lost someone so close to me. So the day I found out you were gone, I screamed "NO" (I really did, my boyfriend can attest to it.). Honestly, I thought it was some kind of cruel joke when I heard the news.

How could such a good person suddenly not exist anymore? When I was in high school you were one of those people I could count on to put a smile on my face. You were the one that made me laugh until I cried. And you were also the one that made feel uncomfortable (often) with your sexual innuendos. It's okay though... They made me laugh as well. From what I have seen on Facebook so far, you were like that for many other people. You were a silly comedian to a lot of us, and we will never forget that.

I know we lost touch at some point, and I know that I haven't you seen in a while. That is something I regret the most, but despite not talking to you in a long time, I always wished the best for you. And whenever I thought of you, I had nothing but positive thoughts and memories. Thinking that you were in some kind of pain is unbelievable given your personality, but then I think that maybe the saddest people make others happy instead of making themselves happy. So I will put you in the same categories as all the other legends (Robin Williams, Kurt Kobain, etc.)

I guess you can never know what kind of demons a person could be dealing with internally, but you didn't deserve them. Thank you for being my sunshine on rainy days.

So my friend, you will forever be in heart with your silly personality. Rest easy.