You are scared. You are unsure. You are beginning to doubt. You are wondering if this thing called "love" is even worth it. It happens. I understand because I am standing where you are right now.
Up until now, I have learned to love myself and I've been independent. The guys I did give a chance to be a potential boyfriend only broke my heart in the process, and soon I started to build my wall. By the time my boyfriend found me my wall was higher than ever before.
The hardest thing is to let someone in after you have been broken. You are scared that it is going to happen again, so it is easier to keep up your guard than to let that guy into your life. The scariest part of love is being open, and allowing him to see you at your best and at your worse without them taking advantage of your fragile heart.
We all have been broken, but yet we still had this hope that a great guy will come along, and show us what love really is. Then that guy comes along, and you find yourself being afraid. Soon you are wanting to push him away because all you have ever known was to keep your heart safe from the pain.
Although it seems hard, you have to let him in. If you keep pushing guys away then sooner or later you will end up with a broken heart that never had the chance to get fixed. There is a guy out there who will mend your broken heart if you allow them to.
I know you are terrified of what could happen, and you are thinking the worse scenarios that haven't even happened yet. I've been there and done that. I still need to be honest. Don't let the fear of what could happen keep you from finding the love you deserve and desire.
You cannot let him tear down your wall all by himself. You have to be willing to help him tear down your wall, and take that first leap of faith. It will not be easy; it will not be a one day fix. There is nothing easy and quick about learning to love again.
It is completely fine to have your guard up a little because that is inevitable. It is going to be until you learn to completely love him. With love comes trust. You have to trust that he won't break your heart and once you learn to trust then you are one step closer to letting him in.
I won't promise you that it is going to be easy, but I can promise you that once you let your guard down then love is worth it.





















