To an old friend,
Throughout the years, I've met different people and been able to take part in different experiences. There have been good and bad times; however, I'm not sure why we've lost touch. In a way, it's a blessing in disguise because I know the value of my self worth. It's not a direct insult, but more of a learning experience. We all have different levels of self worth and it's not to say what doesn't work for me, doesn't work for you.
What doesn't work for me though is always reaching out to people I care for. Countless times I've sent a text message, tried calling or even just by reaching out via social media. I've even offered to get together. Then I give them the benefit of the doubt and reach out again, because I assume that they were just busy, or simply taken by surprise...or feeding me the standard answer that we should get together soon or they'll talk to me later. After a few times of reaching out, I finally feel like I'm putting more energy into forming a friendship than the actual "friend" is. So I'm left with only one choice and that's to back away.
A few days go by and I don't hear from them. Not even a simple hello. A few weeks go by and I still don't hear from them. Believe me, I understand people have lives and responsibilities, but all it takes is two seconds to send a text message. A few months go by and then I finally receive a text message asking where I've been because they haven't heard from me. Part of me wants to tell them bluntly how it is, but the other part of me wants to take the high road because it simply isn't worth it anymore.
It still hurts, stings and is offensive when the other side doesn't realize that they've slacked off in keeping in touch. Or slacked off in reciprocating any form of friendship. No, it doesn't matter how long we've known this person for because time doesn't matter. A person's character does.
That being said, all of this doesn't work for me. As to why I've chosen to take a few steps back. So next time you ask me why I've taken a step back, disappeared or haven't reached out, take a look at this letter and really second guess why you're asking me these questions. Really truly try to understand why I may have taken a different approach into keeping in touch or only respond when I hear from you. If our friendship has value, take a moment to think outside the box and have the guts to be honest with not just me, but yourself.
