To my favorites,

Hey guys. I’ve missed you all lots. Like, a lot. Honestly, my life hasn’t been the same since you’ve all left.

A lot has changed. We all have started college. Finished our first semester. We’ve met new people. Yet no friends have held the same spots in my heart as you all do.

I haven’t laughed as hard as I do with you guys (laugh-crying isn’t a thing without you). I haven’t gone on drive-by adventures and haven’t driven around town blasting music. I haven’t spent the afternoon at one of your houses, losing track of time doing god knows what. It hasn’t been the same.

I’m glad you all are doing well. I’m glad you have new friends. I hope you like your schools and I hope your time there is life-changing. It’s hard to see you all having fun and moving on with me just being here. But even though it hurts a little, it warms my heart when I see you all enjoying yourselves. Living the life that a college student should.

When the time gets close to you all coming home, I get anxious. Yes, I'm an anxious freak. But this is a good anxious. Anxious to have you all yell at me for my driving. Anxious for the legendary hugs and cuddles. Anxious to have a sense of normalcy.

Because without you all, my reality doesn’t seem all that real.

It’s so nice to have you all back. But the worst part is that you have to leave again soon.

But you all going away has made me appreciate your company so much more. It’s like every moment I spend with you guys, I cherish and am so incredibly happy. When we reunite, it feels like nothing’s different between us. That's what I love the most, that even though things are so strange and unusual nowadays, with you guys, everything seems normal.

You all have changed so much. In a good way. You’ve become so independent, so strong, and so confident. I know you all will continue to grow, flourishing and succeeding in the scary place known as College. Be safe. Be responsible. Have fun, but not too much fun. Because it would kill me to find out you did something so incredibly stupid... without me.

Please don’t ever let go. As time goes on, even more people will come into our lives, and who knows where we will end up. But no matter what, I want you all at my wedding (one of you will be there to object). I want it always to feel this way, where even though you’re gone, most of the time it feels like you’re still here. Like a Starbucks date is just a few minutes away.

Just know that not a day passes where I don’t think about you. All of you. Whether it’s stalking one of your Instagram’s, texting you, or re-reading old messages, you all are always in my heart and in my mind, each and every single day.

Let’s enjoy the time we have left. Let’s make the days count and make new memories. Life will sway us all in many different ways, but just know that when push comes to shove, we’ll always be best friends, as inseparable as we are now. Love you guys.

Godspeed ladies,

The Commuter