To boy who left me when I needed him most,
It’s hard to imagine the person you thought loved you for almost two years somehow managing to leave you hanging when you need them most, but you did. You astonished me. I was numb for months after you left me feeling like I had been abandoned by my best friend. I gave you my all for almost two years, and you left me to figure out things for yourself. Even still, I owe you a thank you.
You bailing on me gave me the motivation to do things for myself and make myself happy for once. At first, I was sad. Sad and lost. I was confused as to how you, of all people, could bail on me like that — how you could kick me like that while I was down. I could have sat around and wallowed in my self-pity while I watched myself lose the boy I loved, but I didn’t. I did the opposite and moved on because you no longer deserved my love. The pain you caused the day you didn’t show up, or the next few weeks after that, made me take charge of my life and get myself together. The heartbreak and devastation only made me stronger. Thank you.
Now, I’m not saying you’re to blame for the falling out we had. I would never point fingers like that. I made my share of mistakes, but I also would have never left you in your time of need like you did to me. I do know you loved me, but sometimes love alone isn’t enough. It’s what you’re willing to give to the one you love that matters, and you were not willing to give enough to me. Although I might have cut our final ties, you were the one who walked away.
I’m a better version of myself than I was last year because of you. I’m happy, I’m really happy. I’ve surrounded myself with people who would do anything for me and love me endlessly. They’re the ones who I can trust will be there for me in my next time of need. You taught me life is too short to have people in it who are anything but loyal.
Because of you, I will never beg for someone’s attention or company again. I will never cry over a boy who is not worth it. I will never hold onto a relationship that is dying. I will never depend on someone the way I depended on you, ever again. I will never put all my trust into one boy until I am really ready again. Because of you leaving me when I needed you most, I am damaged but wiser. You hurt me like no other, but I don’t hate you. I hope you learned a lesson from this too. I hope you never abandon someone you “love” again. I will always care about you, but I can never forgive you.
Sincerely,
The girl who's stronger without you.
