Believe it or not, there is more to llife than us, as much as we'd both like to think otherwise. There are a lot of things I'm not sure you've realized about me that I would really love for you to know. I've had a past, I have an ongoing present, and I am going to have a future, hopefully with you in it.
My past extends a whole lot farther than the last 6 (almost 7) months that we have been dating, and it is very important to me. I HAVE loved before, and I have also lost before. I know you'd like to think that I don't have much of a past, since I hardly ever talk about it. But the sad truth is that I have loved and lost more than I should have allowed myself. But all of that led me here to you, for which I am thankful for. I want you to understand that who I am today, is all thanks to everything I have been through up until this point, good and bad. I'm entirely dedicated to you now, so the past shouldn't bother you, but I'd like you to be aware that I have lived my life a lot longer than the past 6 months.
There's more to my daily routine than trying my best to spend as much as time with you as I can. As much as I'd love to spend every minute of everyday with you, I just can't, and I want you to understand that and be okay with it. I have work and school and I need room to breathe. I spend the majority of my time worrying about everything for the both of us, and I'm not sure you've noticed. So if I get busy and can't see you, there is a reason why. I'm not just avoiding you. I'd love to just settle down with you right now, but we both have a lot of life to get together. My present life is the most important thing to me. Each decision I make affects my future but cannot be touched by my past, and that's where the beauty lies in it.
The future is a mysterious place that we really have no control over except for the decisions we make now in hopes of bettering our future. You heard me right when I said "our" future. I have high hopes for spending my life with you. The future is going to take us on some twists and turns, including me graduating and starting my career, and I just need you to stick it out with me. I have a very specific idea of how I want my future to turn out, so keep that in mind.
While I can't copy and paste you into my past, I have you now and we have a wonderous future ahead of us.




















