I never wanted to say good-bye to you. The very last thing I ever wanted to do was say good-bye to you, but you made it clear that you don't want me around anymore. You know, the thing about good-byes is that you never see them coming. I never thought that my last phone call with you would be our last phone call, that the last time you texted me would be the last time I heard from you, or the last time we hung out would be the last time I ever saw you. I never thought that I'd lose you so soon, but I guess I was wrong to actually think that you cared about our friendship, too.
You took me by surprise. One day, we just started being friends and started getting close. It is said that you meet everyone for a reason, and that's exactly how it felt. I didn't meet you until my freshmen year of college, and it's crazy to think that I never would've met you if I went away for college like I wanted to instead of staying local. I never would've learned that you have three tattoos and the meaning behind them, I never would've learned that your favorite colors are green and blue, I never would've learned that you love country music, I never would've learned that you have a fear of spiders, I never would've learned that we're both going to the same university next year, and I never would've learned that you and I share family members. I never would've crossed paths with you, but I did. I guess you never gave it that much thought, though.
Not having you in my life is hard. You're still the name I expect to see when my phone goes off and you're still the first person I want to tell my news to. I wish I could still snapchat you funny things that happen to me throughout my day, but then I remember that you don't care about me anymore and that you killed our streak. I think of all the times that you texted me random stuff that made me laugh that I'll never get again, I think of all the times we hung out and how great it was to catch up with you, I think of the time you wrapped my Christmas presents for me because I'm terrible at it, and I think about how you were the first person who asked me if I was okay when I was in the emergency room right before Christmas time. But I guess that doesn't mean anything to you. You'd much rather live your life without me in it, and I guess I'm too stupid to realize that you're not coming back.
The day will come where you will meet someone new and replace me. I hope that they will be everything I couldn't be for you and make you're worst of days a little less painful. Most of all though, I hope they love you just as much as I do, because even though you suck, I still wish you the best. Just kidding you already had the best you'll never find someone better than me. But I do wish you nothing but happiness. Love you, kid.
