When I was a sophomore in high school, my best friend's life was taken in a car accident. I would give anything to call him one last time or have one last late night conversation with him. I just need to make sure Trenton knows how much I love him. I talked to Trent for hours the night he passed away, but there is still so much I want to tell him. That being said, here is an open letter to my best friend in heaven.
Dear Guardian Angel,
I miss.
I miss you in my dreams. I miss you when I’m awake. I miss you when I see a big smile. I just miss you. I know you’re always here. I know you’re looking over me and all our friends, but I can't help but miss you. I close my eyes and you’re standing next to me again with a huge smile on your face. You tell me not to worry. You tell me heaven is beautiful and someday I’ll be there with you, but I still miss you.
I cry.
I stare at the clouds in the middle of the day to find water pouring out of my eyes, and then I realize I’m thinking about you. I wake up with tears all over my pillow, realizing I’ve been dreaming about all the memories we have. About the time we got in trouble in the fourth grade, to the time I caught a glimpse of your perfect smile at church. I’m happy you're in a better place, but I still cry.
I pray.
I pray to Jesus. I pray to you. I pray to my grandma and my uncle. I pray that you’re okay. I pray that Jesus and my family is taking care of you. I just want to know you’re prospering in Heaven, and making everyone up there as happy as you made me down here on Earth. I pray to you to show me a sign, to give me a hint that you’re still happy. I know you. I know you’re doing just fine, and bringing joy to everyone who crosses your path, but I still pray.
And most of all.
I love.
I love you today the same way I did on the day we met, the day we became best friends, and the day I heard you were gone. I’ll always love you more than you know, and more than you could have or ever will understand. I love that I miss you. I love that I cry over you. I love that I pray to you. I love to love you.
Love,
One of Your People on Earth
I’d like to thank a couple people for giving me the courage and inspiration to write this letter. If it weren’t for Trent’s parents, Jim and Cynde Huber, I would have never been brave enough to cry through this writing process. I love you both and everything you’ve ever done for me, especially for giving me my best friend on Earth and in Heaven. Also, I’d like to thank Trent Tomlinson and JJ Lawhorn for the music that inspires me to never lose sight of the fact that Trenton is in heaven and doing just fine. They each have a song that reminds me greatly of Trent and that shows me that sometimes writing about it just helps. Please take the time to check out some of their music. It’s bound to help you through some tough times like it has me.
