In our world, there are three types of girls:
Girls who are practically married to their boyfriends,
Girls who are simply single,
And those who almost fell in love, who almost had their happy ending.
Now, everyone falls under a different category, but I happen to fall under the "almost." Those who fall into this grouping might have it the worst; you tend to fall for someone and just when you think there is a light at the end of the tunnel, someone flipped the switch.
An "almost" girl, gets her heart broken more times than she can handle but loves again with hope that the next guy will be the one.
In my own personal experience, there had been another issue that fell into the mix of being an "almost" girl; being the pretty girl. As you are reading this, maybe you think I'm full of pride to come out and say I'm pretty but it is the truth. My whole life I've been looked at as the beautiful, tall, athletic girl and nothing else. There have been times when my friends will say that I shouldn't complain that guys what to talk to me or people have thought that I was full of myself to say that someone else was flirting with me, but did anyone ever take a moment to think...that I don't want this? I personally find flirting to be awkward and uncomfortable, don't believe me? Ask my best friend. Sometimes, with guys coming up to me or "sliding into my DM's" feels like a I'm considered to be an ego boost, which takes me back to the almost phase.
As a 23 year old, I've had my fair share of heartbreak, dates, and conversations with men; some tell me that I don't know what I want and I remind them that they're not psychic. So, after all the guys I've talked to, why do I still feel alienated?
A lot of girls like to believe I have it somewhat easy, nothing has ever been easy. I sit and wish upon every star I see for the day that I'll fall in love and have my own happy ending. At most, I tend to be the "almost" girl about four times throughout an entire year. I sit and wonder what these guys even want from me, but I guess I'm not supposed to know.
When you're the "almost" girl, you tend to like someone you can't have or someone who isn't ready for a relationship; and you sit and wonder when the madness will ever end.
Here's the deal:
We are the "almost" girls because no one else can handle another like we can.
We are strong.
That is what becomes of us as the "almost." Nothing is ever meant to be an easy ride, whether you're in a relationship, single or in the middle; but no one has ever heard what it was like to fall in the middle. For some people, the "almost" girl lives a glamorous life getting all the guys, but behind the curtain, she feels pulled in about ten different directions.
Girls, I want you to know that you're not alone in the middle.
Boys, understand who she is and what she can be.
The "almost" girl finds herself in a tangled, messy web but somehow is still clawing through the madness to a time of peace.
