“One of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. Whether it’s guilt, anger, love, loss or betrayal. Change is never easy. We fight to hold on and we fight to let go.”
There was a time I looked in the mirror and I couldn’t even see myself. It wasn’t me. I was broken, depressed, lonely and felt disgusted with myself. As much as I wanted to fix myself from what my mind was doing to me, I couldn’t. At least, that’s what I kept telling myself.
I know everyone has been through a time that they felt like maybe they weren’t enough or didn’t really understand their purpose. I know everyone feels alone sometimes and sometimes people can’t get out of the thoughts trapped inside their head. There was a time I didn’t think I was going to be okay. I didn’t love myself and I didn’t want to. I never thought there would be a time that I could smile again without thoughts racing through my head to bring me down. I thought everyone around me hated me. I didn’t want to move and face reality. As much as I wanted help to just let go of all the negatives, I didn’t know how.
But one day, after a long few weeks of just feeling empty, I had to help myself. The thoughts in my head weren’t going to win. I was going to fight back to be the person I wanted to be again. It took time, and it took family and friends to help keep me going and my mind off the bad things. But, it worked. It really worked. And I promise one day you will get up and want to change and when everything in your head is telling you otherwise, I hope you get up and do it anyways.
One day you will be able to smile and be happy for doing it. One day you will look into the mirror and love your appearance, one day you will be able to say “I’m okay” and really mean it. By no means does this happen in a day. It takes time. Some people days, some years. But one day you will be okay.
So to everyone still having those bad days, I challenge you to go do something you’ve always wanted to do. Go explore the outdoors, go to every coffee shop you can and eat all the food in the world. Buy those even if you don’t have the money. Stay occupied, make friends and love yourself. I promise after a while all those bad thoughts will drift away and you won’t even know it until the day you someone asks you how you are. And for once, you can smile and say “I’m okay” and mean it.
So here’s to everyone struggling with their differences in life,conquer the world my friend.
I promise one day you will be okay.
